If I weren't afraid cont....

So....After my brave statement of "watch out world"...world gave me a reality check and said: honey you're not done yet!




On a car drive to an appointment this morning, my neck felt stiff and I chose to let go of what was creating that whilst listening to some pleasant music on the radio...the tears started to flow and I discovered that my choice of opening my heart was continuing it's integration and merely making a choice (really making a choice from deep inside) was enough!

And when the choice needs a little assistance I am not opposed to using the tools the universe provides like sound therapy and focused energy. Another welcome release insued bringing with it a flood gate of realizations. One at a time.

If I weren't afraid I would focus my business on energy and emotional balancing.

And here we go again another opportunity to put my money where my mouth is and face the fear and act asif.

I love the simplicity of doing internal emotional cleansing - reprogramming and watching the miracles happen. If I were not witnessing them in my own life I would probably be sceptical but my life has made a believer out of me.........IT IS TRUE..........energy flows where attention goes!!

I am so ready to live the life I was born to live.

Are you?

If you weren't afraid what would you do?

I was lead through an exercise tonight at my monthly Loadstone networking meeting (check out the website for Loadstone to introduce yourself to a strong group of talented, gifted healthcare providers)

Anyway, we were asked "what would you do if you weren't afraid?"

As you can imagine all the obvious surface answers showed up first....I would sing out loud and dance in the rain and jump out of a perfectly good plane!

But when you dig a little deeper the fears that are blocking you from living the life you desire show their face.

I was amazed at the things that showed up for me. I realised that I would really open my heart and love without abandon. I would share that love with all and finally love myself the way I deserve. Oh no another biggy (the deserving factor)

I knew I hit the nail on the head when these words made me choke up. Isn't it funny that expressing the deep truth has a tendency to do that...to make us all emotional and we find it hard to spit the words out. There is nothing like a bit of honesty with self to open a whole new world.



Many realized that they would choose different relationships and do a lot of things differently and I have made a note to myself not to wait - to start doing it all now!!!

Why let fear (an illusion) stop me from being all that I can be.

So here I go...watch out world I'm gonna love you next!!!

Don't play small

There are many authors we love and their words guide us at times. I love many of them but this one passage always stands out for me and as a South African citizen it has special meaning to me.



I use it as one of my rules to live by:







"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, "who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?" Actually who are you not to be?







You are a child of God. Your Playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory that is within us. And as we let our light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."







- Marianne Williamson







(Nelson Mandela used this passage in his 1994 Inaugural Speech)

Love after love

I really liked and identified with this poem, especially now and I wish to share it. It reminds me yet again that love starts on the inside first and it has become abundantly clear to me that I may have closed my heart little by little as I progressed through life. I bought into all the things I was told as a child and one of them was that I was unwanted and I somehow translated that into not lovable or loved and this became my reality and my inner dialogue became a reflection of that lie. This poem is a gift to myself and I give it now to you with an open heart and love as my motivation.....may this touch you deep inside as it does me.





The time will come


when, with elation,


you will greet yourself arriving


at your own door, in your own mirror,


and each will smile at the other's welcome,


and say, sit here. Eat.


You will love again the stranger who was your self.


Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart


to itself, to the stranger who has loved you


all your life, whom you ignored


for another, who knows you by heart.


Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,


the photograph, the desperate notes,


peel your own image from the mirror.


Sit. Feast on your life.





- Derek Wallcott

Believe in nothing..

Belief is the foundation for all our re-actions. (the way we act and keep acting)
It is where our feelings stem from.
In this new world of attraction, that we are all becoming more and more aware of, it seems strange that we still attract unwanted things.
Could this be that our beliefs are no longer true for us at this moment of creation, thus soliciting the incorrect feeling? And is it not this feeling that brings forth our manifestation? OR could it be that our beliefs solicit old feelings (not good uplifting...feelings) and then we manifest the things that are unwanted, in harmony with our feelings?

When I look at this statement it may mean that I am continually dancing around in a circle or that I must be present so that I can know what I am feeling and thus creating.

A lot of our belief systems were created at a very young age and we stubbornly hold unto them without really checking in. By that I mean checking into how they make us feel. This is the true guage of whether a belief system still serves us or not...

bringing me the point of...believe in nothing or even better yet be open to another belief system or a changing belief system. To create a different reality means that you must change the belief that created it in the first place.
When in doubt... Check in, how does it feel?

I am sorry if this seems garbled but sometimes we just puke on a page! Good luck figuring it out!

positive exercises

I meet with an amazing group of women every month and we are currently reading A New Earth and one of our ladies mentioned a wonderful exercise that she is doing to help her initial perception of those she encounters in her daily life. She decided her first thought had to be something positive of every person that she sees in Target and has found this to be challenging at times. I salute her in her efforts to improve her positive energies and thus empower herself and send powerful positive energy to those around her.





I would like to go a little deeper and put the challenge out there to all of us to do this with ourselves....every time you look in the mirror, let the first thought and words that leave your mouth be something positive to the reflection you see. If you do this all the time it will be a lot easier to see the positive not only in others but in everything.





Criticism starts at home and the only way to be successful in eradicating it would be to start with self yet again....





This is my constant message to myself and those whose lives I touch...............Please look within before looking without!

Freedom

"We are all flowers in the Great Spirit's garden. We share a common root, and the root is Mother Earth.

The garden is beautiful because it has different colors in it..and those colors represent different traditions and cultural backgrounds."



(Grandfather David Monongye)

We need to start looking at our world through new eyes. Believe in nothing but remain open to everything. Read the words but listen to your heart.
We live in an everchanging cosmos and therefore must remain open.
Freedom......being open to the opportunities that come our way. Ride the wave and see where it takes you.