Saying goodbye to the old and surrendering to the flow.

 The last few months of 2023 were intense to say the least. I experienced so many different emotions and had some interesting experiences. 

My body has been doing strange things. I have been told this happens during the menopausal transition and boy, did it kick my ass. I wondered whose body this is? What used to work and help with weight, stress and general health just doesn't seem to cut it anymore. Pushing too hard just isn't working and I am tired. 

I have had to surrender and trust more than I ever have before. The BIG lesson of trust has been a doozie to say the least.

How does one surrender after a lifetime of discipline and structure. I really felt like I was being tested. My body was asking for time to adjust, time to rest and time to heal. I had some trouble listening. I rely on exercise to help me feel better and relieve stress. I was not allowed to exercise for 6 weeks and it was tough. I had to create a new routine and I discovered that I was not very good or disciplined in doing so. I missed not exercising and at the same time felt relief that I did not have to take 2 hours out of every day to do so. I have to say goodbye to the idea of perfection.

I told you my emotions were mixed and all over the place. You would think that I would use that time constructively. In my opinion, I did not. (and now looking back, I still accomplished quite a bit) And I am reminded that I am really hard on myself and clarity of my achievements is not a strong suit. It comes from a history of always fighting and striving to be and do better and, I must admit, the belief that I am not enough. Those inner child wounds do seem to show themselves when we pay attention and we get to heal them and soothe our inner child. I did get to do some great work in this area in 2023. (grateful) ☺️ 

Now to get back on track...

I felt disconnected from source and my intuition (I wasn't really but it sure felt like it) I felt like my body had betrayed me and I discovered that I actually betrayed my body. It has been working so hard for me to keep me healthy and be the best that it can be regardless of my daily mental negative onslaughts. I was not kind to myself or my body and I know many of you can relate to that. Why do we do that?

Loving my body unconditionally is my new goal. I am waking up with more gratitude and in awe of the 100 trillion cells that work tirelessly and beautifully within this expression that is me.

It has dawned on me that I need to go with the flow of my body and nature. It is winter here now and thus hibernation is actually the natural status. I am sleeping a lot longer and needing more rest and this did cause me some stress initially. 

 I did a healing journey (mushrooms) and experienced major releases and clearings, which takes a lot of energy and time to integrate. I am constantly being shown that gentleness, surrender and trust is needed now more than ever. The world is in turmoil and I know that it is important for us as healers to be strong, clear and balanced. Taking the time to rest and restore is very important and necessary for the wellbeing of all. (yet another well learned lesson)

After Christmas an opportunistic virus surfaced and challenged my Immune system. I was like: "what the hell?"....I guess if we do not listen and slow down enough the Universe and our body will create a situation that forces us to do so. (I always tell my clients this)  I was obviously still in the old habit of pushing and expecting to be further along my healing and integration journey than I was.  Those old habits have a way of showing themselves and we get the opportunity to stare them in the face and choose to let them go or not. Time to say goodbye to you dear habit!

Fortunately the new year according to the Chinese calendar starts in February and it gives me the rest of this month to integrate and fully recover. I am listening and resting when my body calls for it. I am not judging myself for sleeping 9-10 hours a night. I know this too shall pass and the work will get done.

I am using this time to do some exercises in clearing out mental clutter and physical clutter. I do wish to enter this new year with more clarity and love.

I love reflecting on beliefs that no longer serve me and what I wish to focus on and bring into the new year. Who do I want to be and how do I wish to show up for myself and my community? How do I wish to show up in my business. What do I wish to accomplish with Spirit this year to help heal and bring more love and peace to humanity and earth?

This is going to be an amazing year and I am finally ready to see and be seen. I am willing and ready to share all my gifts with the world and to create the Love and wholeness I wish for all. I am practicing to stay in the NOW.  I am open to receive. I am curious and willing to learn. I know that I know nothing. I surrender to the flow. I surrender control! (this is huge for me)

What are you ready to create this year? What is your dream? What are you willing to give up to grow?

FEAR..the new accessory????

 Fear has become the new fashionable accessory.

We wear it everywhere, we judge everyone through it and we allow our lives to be governed by it.

We cannot leave our homes, offices or workplaces without it. Take a moment to think about this...you have allowed fear to override you liberties, your judgment and your choices. You have given away your personal power to fear. You have put in on like a favorite accessory. You are cloaking yourself with it like a winter coat.

You fear the people around you, you fear leaving the “security” of your house. When did we become so fearful of each other, of the differences in the world, of viruses and bacteria that not only make up our environment but that live within us? Should we not be curious about that which we do not know or understand. Does it not warrant more inspection, a closer look to understand and know that which you do not know? FEAR has paralyzed us from looking for our own answers and solutions to becoming followers of those who create and perpetuate the fear. It has made us fall or stay stuck in old perceptions and habits.

FEAR...this is why we cannot bring in more love, more light, more compassion, more understanding. There is no space for any of these life affirming emotions and qualities when you have occupied the space with fear.

And when we are wearing our favorite fashion accessory(fear) we are so easily controlled, manipulated and shamed into doing that which we would normally never do. We are so easily dominated and we can so easily blame others for our emotions.

It is time to let go of fear. Do what you need to to rise above this to embrace and wear a new energy. The energy of love, of oneness.  FEAR is just the lack of understanding, of the unknown, so go out and explore, ask questions, confront your fears so you can create a better life, a better world.

The larger your fear the smaller your world and the lower your energy and vitality, making you more susceptible to that which you fear in the first place.

CHOOSE another accessory to adorn your beautiful being and be the love and light you are meant to be. DO not let the world around you chose how you move through it. Be courageous.

Spring, a full moon and life

Spring is a time of renewal and planting new seeds for growth. We must also clear out the old and this includes outdated belief systems, thoughts and habits.

We plant new ideas and habits to watch them grow and expand over the spring season to flourish during summer. How do you wish to shift, change, improve and expand your life and consciousness? What hard work and energy can you expend now, to benefit from later? This is the time to get deeply detailed on what your goals are and to focus your attention and energy towards these goals.

Our March full moon or "worm Moon" as it is also called has a spiritual meaning of optimism, hope, and new beginnings. The full moon is a good time to journal...It helps to slow you down and to observe your current situation and be totally present in the moment. It also helps you to gather your thoughts, reflect on your past and how far you have come and where you would like to go. Reflect on what you can change and how and write down a brief plan of what steps/actions you can take to help you get here.

Here are some of the small things I do every day to help me stay on track with the goals that I have set for myself...

• Keep a journal.
• Stop and dance.
• Ask for feedback.
• Strengthen muscles/ exercise
• Start each day with a positive message.
• Do good deeds.
• walk/bathe in Nature.
• smile.

What things do you do to stay energized, motivated, and present so you can make the most of the time you have?

Take this time to reflect and plan for the life you wish to create.

HAPPY SPRING!