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Moving on or moving in

2011-11-29T21:07:00.000-08:00

Having spent much time on getting more in touch with self, I now realize that I am not reaching a destination but am on the greatest journey of my life.

Who the hell am I anyway? I have spent most of my life thinking that I am this or that, only to find out that I may just be whatever I believed my parents said I was or those around me that I trusted thought I was.

I am only now trying to sift thought the lies and finding out that facts may just be other peoples opinions and that the fact is, I am a work in progress and may discover that I am someone different everyday? So I am actually moving in and moving out!

Moving out of who you thought I was and moving in to who I wish to be.

Buddha Maitreya Teaches about "Soul Therap"

2011-08-26T16:02:00.000-07:00

Buddha Maitreya Teaches about "Soul Therapy"
Nepal, 2008
www.soultherapy.org

"All of my life, I have worked in relationship to meditation, I have been meditating since I was a baby, I meditate all the time. I live in state of meditation. There is not anything I do or talk about that is not based on the reality and the effect of meditation. This is not normal for most people. Most people think meditation is something you do maybe one hour out of a day, maybe once a week in a temple, but I believe that we, as human beings, are born to meditate all the time, to have a clear open mind, to have clear emotions, to be in the moment, present in this very moment. Not thinking about the past, not worrying about the future but being so much present in the moment that the past heals itself and the future creates itself. And all we have to do is be present in the moment.

"Meditation brings this about. It allows you to stop thinking in negative ways or desiring ways about how the future will be or how things should change or how you can control them. It allows God to bless the world, God to bless your daily life, God to use you as a vehicle for God to express. All meditation does is allow you to be humane, to be good by your own action, to use your will to be goodwill in action. To allow every moment and every word that you express in this world to be a meditative, thought-form building , loving, compassionate expression, allowing every aspect of your life to be transformed into the very love that you are learning and you are developing.

"Through your daily meditation, you will find that it's your very nature, Buddha nature within, that will grow within you becoming more the compassionate person that you really are and developing those same healing abilities that you find in Saints, that you find in other people that you believe to be powerful and holy, are locked inside of you and able to express, able to heal other people and bless other people and change them in the process of their negativity.

"The binding of that darkness of their negativity is what the Soul heals. It redeems it, it does not judge it, it does not question as to how it got there. It simply radiates a light into it, transforms it from negative to positive, using the very energy of negativity to transform it into a positive reality but it requires meditation of the Soul. It requires realizing that every word and action that you take has to be something that is part of your compassionate God consciousness and allows that expression to incarnate into this world, incarnate into the children, into the building, into your business, into your activity in every area of the world.

"So all of this, all of your healing, you may be sick, you may have emotional problems, you may have all kinds of conditions in your life that bring about fear, a sense of tragedy, a sense of lack of wellbeing. But through meditation and the blessing of meditation allows this to slowly but surely be redeemed and to be released from your shoulders as though it's a personal problem and allows it to be passed on to God's Plan and let it be worked out as God's creation. So your entire life can be used as a tool for God to awaken God's realty into this world.

"No human being is small person. No human being is soulless and negative and full of evil. Every human being is filled with potential light and potential ability to express God's complete consciousness in this world and bring about changes in the government, changes in your daily life, changes in your children that you think are completely impossible to change as though they are born this way. But I believe in rebirth and redemption and that every living Soul, every living thing, animals included, trees, vegetables, everything is included in the making of the Soul and its manifestation into the Soul of the planet."

http://vimeo.com/16812713

2010-11-18T09:16:00.001-08:00

There are lightbulb moments...

2010-06-28T05:34:00.000-07:00

You know those moments where the lift does go all the way to the top floor and opens up to a whole new realization. A place where I suddenly get that you create your own reality and energy flows where attention goes, with such clarity.

This was one of those moments:
I'm standing in the line at the post office in a, all is right with the world and peace to all frame of mind, just watching as the world unfolds in front of me. There is a whole discussion between the server and the client and it is obvious that english is neither ones first language.
The post office server is trying really hard to explain something to the client and the client is trying harder to understand. This is holding up the line and the discussion is loud enough for all to hear but not really understand either...kinda like watching a train smash.

I could feel the energy of frustration rising and started to understand that this is the point where most would be sending daggers and loads of frustrated energy to these two individuals, and it dawned on me that this is where I had the power to shift the energy. I could feed the frustration and send that energy to them and they would take even longer to understand each other or I could send them positive energy, or "love"
I term it this way because to me the energy of love contains patience, understanding, tolerance and compassion and feels good. Now some may scoff at this and call it new age mumbo jumbo or worse but when I think of the positive reality I wish to create or how I would like it to look and feel, its love.

Sending them this energy will help them reach an understanding much faster and move the line along and I can keep my peaceful feeling and get out of there sooner and continue the flow of my day. Another way to look at this would be to visualize them finally "getting" each other and watching the line move on.
Another incident where this applies for me would be when a baby is screaming on a plane as its ears cannot equalize and we generally just wish it would shut up. I am sure if everyone on the plane sent good vibes, good energy or "love", instead of the opposite feelings or energy, the baby would be able to settle down and nature could take it's course.....

Anyhow, the post office moment did make me think about how I move through my day and how my energy and thoughts and feelings affect what I create. It was my moment of clarity!

How far have you moved away from yourself?

2010-05-26T01:10:00.000-07:00

How often do we really contemplate this question...

Am I really here, present in this moment, present in my body. I think, we do not ask this often enough, or slow down long enough to even pretend to. If we did, we would realize that some of us have no idea who or where we are, what we truly believe and the thoughts we repeatedly think and share.

It is my experience that most people have no idea what messages their bodies are sharing with them on a daily basis. They have very little idea that they are basically on the same treadmill going nowhere. Thinking the same thoughts, stuck in the same belief system. They keep hitting the same obstacles, their bodies keep trying to get their attention, some even going as far as to make them ill enough to try and slow them down so that they may finally pay attention. Maybe even stopping long enough to be present and say, hey what is really going on here. How did I get to this place, this moment... BUT most, EVEN then, see it as an annoyance and they reach outside of themselves for a drug or advice, some even blaming an outside force/source, just to be able to get back to doing the same thing that brought them to this point in the first place.

Insanity is defined as doing that same thing over and over again expecting a different result.
The problem is that most don't even realize that they are doing the same thing again and again... Isn't that insane...and the cycle continues.
We run around keeping ourselves busy, entertaining our ego's, never paying attention to our essence. Some never even questioning the purpose of it all.

Hence, this question...How far have YOU moved away from yourself??

I sit and/in wonder...

2010-05-24T08:46:00.000-07:00

I wonder how often you sit silently,
seeing,
listening,
Being?

I wonder if you ever stop...
Doing,
running,
Acting?

I ponder if you ever let the moment take you...
journeying,
flowing in discovery,
stopping time?

I often sit IN wonder...
seeing for the first time,
listening and actually hearing,
truly being,
knowing,

AND I stay IN wonder!!!

Emotions, Beliefs and our physical health

2010-05-20T10:36:00.000-07:00

There has been lots of research connecting the emotional and physical body. I personally believe that most ailments start in the emotional field first but there are also indications that toxins hold their own unique energy and bring about certain mind frames and thoughts.

Candice Pert, a neuropharmacologist, who wrote Molecules of Emotion and, revealed that neuropeptides are present in both the Immune system and on the cell walls of the brain. As these messengers travel through the body they provide vital information and sometimes instant physical feedback.
This discovery shows a close association with emotions and that our emotions and our health are deeply interdependent. Research indicates an inextricable link between our emotions and the regulatory systems of the endocrine (hormonal system) and Immune system through the Central Nervous System (CNS).

"We can safely say that words, thoughts, emotions and the physical body are all synergistically linked together. A thought expressed in an electromagnetic brain wave that sends a message to the neuropeptides, which in turn is fired off into the CNS to produce the result from the human body. A belief system is a strong enough (or perhaps recurring ) though that is relayed to the neuropeptides within the message system of the body. In turn, the physical body reacts to the emotional Belief System that it is conditioned for. The key is to change the messages that are sent to the body, and to do that we change our Beliefs." (Vianna Stibal..Theta Healing)

It is crucial to look at the predominant thoughts we think, the emotions we feel and our belief systems as they are creating our health and or maintaining our dis-ease. It is time to be brutally honest with ourselves to begin and progress our healing to live the lives we were meant to live.

It does not serve you to hold onto the anger, fear or bitterness in your life. There are many different avenues to help you address these feelings and blockages in your system if you find that you cannot do it by yourself, and many of us can't and there is no shame in that....Shame being another emotion that is holding us captive. Emotional healing and counseling may be what you need, so be open to going down this road. This road may lead you to your inner self and all the mysteries that are locked inside there, patiently waiting for you. Reach out to the network of information around you. Have the intent to resolve whatever may be needed and watch for the messages and people that are there to help you do so.

Contact me for further assistance if you feel stuck or do not know where to begin. It is time to realize that you are unlimited and everything you need is within. I know you hear this so often that it makes you sigh and for some even flips that switch, and we've lost your attention, BUT if this IS what you hear often, maybe its time to pay attention!!!!!!

You may have heard this...

2010-05-16T09:56:00.000-07:00

"Nothing - not all the armies in the world can stop an idea whose time has come" --Victor Hugo

"You are what you eat..." ???

"Health is a journey not a destination" - Donald Epstein

"We don't see things as they are, we see them as we are."
-- Anais Nin

"How we long to become that which we hardly believe we are"....???

"If it came from a plant, eat it: if it was made in a plant, don't" - Michael Pollan

"when you make a world tolerable for yourself you make a world tolerable for others." -- Anais Nin

"you are a divine child of God with Unlimited Potential. You are meant to live all that you desire.
You were born worthy, lovable, deserving, and complete. This is the only vision that I hold for you."
   -- Anisa Aven

"it ain't about how hard ya hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done!! Now if you know what you are worth, then go out and get what you're worth"
   -- Rocky Balboa

"People spend a lifetime searching for happiness; looking for peace. They chase idle dreams, addictions, religion, even other people, hoping to fill the emptiness that plagues them. The irony is the only place they ever needed to search was within" --Romana L Anderson

"to handle yourself use your head, to handle others use your heart" --Donald Liard

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us"
   -- Walt Emerson

"The truth of the matter is that you always know the right thing to do. The hard part is doing it"
   -- General H Norman Schwarzkopf

"Giving up does not always mean you are weak...sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."
   -- Unknown

"Begin with the end in mind" -- Stephen Covey

"Speak when you are angry and you'll make the best speech you'll ever regret." -- Lawrence J Peter

Alkaline water.....

2010-05-12T09:51:00.000-07:00

Alkalizing the body is a hot topic and would probably not be necessary if we all ate enough good healthy greens and vegetables and avoided processed foods, which is the staple of so many western diets.

Herewith some information regarding a specific brand of alkaline water (researched of the web)

Kangen water is one of many brand names for so-called alkaline waters promoted as a healthier form of water with significant anti-oxidant properties. It's generally presented as the result of an electrolysis process which separates ordinary water (H20) into two separate entities. One half of the separated water becomes an acidic HO molecule, while the other becomes an alkaline OH molecule. The producers of Kangen water bottle the alkaline OH water for drinking purposes, while the acidic HO molecule is used for topical applications.

The name kangen is Japanese for "return to the origin," which helps to explain the philosophy behind its promotion as a health food. According to one theory, the human body needs both acids and alkalis to properly process foods, make repairs and generally remain in good working order. Ingesting too many acidic foods and beverages, most notably carbonated soft drinks, can lower the body's natural pH levels to dangerously acidic levels. Kangen water, or other alkaline or ionized waters, could help restore a the body's proper pH level and perhaps even become more alkaline, which would be a positive development, in theory.

Kangen water and other ionized or alkaline water products are also said to have smaller molecules, which means they are more readily absorbed by the body. Ordinary tap wateror unprocessed bottled waters have larger water molecules which tend to pass through the body without reaching individual cells. Without proper re-hydration, these cells can suffer from a form of cellular dehydration and either die too soon or fail to function efficiently. Kangen water is believed to have the ability to rehydrate these cells before they essentially dry out.

While the science behind ionized or alkaline water is fairly solid, the main concern with Kangen water appears to be one of marketing. Kangen water is primarily sold through a multi-level marketing strategy, also known as an MLM. This means the marketer who actually sells the Kangen water company's deionizing machine to a customer must pass along part of the total profit to his or her manager, district supervisor, regional manager and so on. Under theKangen water MLM system, there can be as much as an 8 way division of profits per sale, which means the price of the actual deionizing machine which creates Kangen water can be exceptionally high when compared to similar devices.

There are other deionizing systems which are said to produce the same or even better results than the Kangen water electrolysis system. Even orange juice produces the same level of negative ions as Kangen water. The idea of consuming more alkaline water for overall health benefits appears to have some merit, but it may not be strictly necessary to invest over $1,000 US Dollars (USD) in a water deionization machine when less expensive alternatives are available.

Sugar may not be a four letter word....

2010-02-18T13:51:00.000-08:00

I wanted to post this interesting observation from Dr Mark Kaye, Head of technical services for Metagenics Inc. (one of the leading Nutritional companies currently)

To be honest, the first thought is that most worry far too much about sugar. Sugar is not a four-letter word.

· The metabolic end fate of ANY carbohydrate, whether fruit, vegetable, fructose, sugar, agave, or HFCS is conversion to glucose.

· The main macronutrient source for the muscles is carbohydrate – glucose, sugar.

· The organ that uses the greatest percentage of dietary carbohydrate is the brain. The only source of nutrition for the brain (in absence of starvation / fasting) is sugar / glucose.

· Fructose, as it is a carbohydrate as found in fruits and most vegetables, has been consumed by man for millennia.

· The differences today? Cheap food; excess calorie consumption, consumption of primarily highly-processed foods; along with absence of consumption of whole foods.

· Most are consuming magnitudes increase in calories – often from empty-calorie carbohydrates – and not nutrient-dense, calorically-balanced foods.

Whether from pure sugar, honey (which is high in fructose), agave syrup, or similar, in moderation carbohydrates are necessary parts of the diet (and in sweet foods, a treat), again, in context with an overall healthy diet. We need to read closely exactly what is being said:

“…"Agave syrup is almost all fructose, highly processed sugar with great marketing," said Dr. Ingrid Kohlstadt, a fellow of the American College of Nutrition and an associate faculty member at Johns Hopkins School of Public Health. "Fructose interferes with healthy metabolism when (consumed) at higher doses"…”

Yes, out of balance, without moderation, ANY sugar is an issue. No one consumes “glucose” alone. Most always, anytime one consumes carbohydrate one consumes fructose. While fructose is metabolized differently than glucose, the metabolic end-fate is the same, conversion to glucose. The issue with fructose, again, is volume. It is well known that many people get a majority of their carbohydrate intake from both processed juice drinks and soda.

“…If you simply must have some sweets, a small amount of agave nectar every once in a while isn't going to kill you. Just don't buy into the idea that it's any better for you than plain old sugar or HFCS…”

Nor any worse. At its most basic, what is fructose? A low-glycemic index, non-insulinogenic carbohydrate as found in fruits and many vegetables.

“… A sugar is a sugar is a sugar, [says Kantha Shelke, a food chemist specializing in natural foods and principal with the Chicago-based food science think tank Corvus Blue]…”

Yes, and sugar [carbohydrate] has been consumed by man since his existence began. The difference today? Imbalanced food intake. Period. Fructose, regardless of form, is the major carbohydrate in fruits and vegetables. The issue is volume.

The question may be what is the agave nectar being used on?

If someone is mixing up a big glass of agave-sweetened water, how different is that from soda? Not much. Empty calories.

If someone is using agave syrup in moderation, along with a macronutrient balanced, calorically balanced, whole-food diet, is it an issue? I think most all would agree that no it is not.

What is interesting regarding the question on PCOS, is that is “sugar” the main problem in PCOS? In some yes, the majority no. The issue in PCOS is likely genetic insulin signaling so that those who still consume a quality diet may have symptom. That is why compounds such as myoinositol, which function on signaling / messenger molecules, are of help in many with PCOS away from straight diet (which should be the first item addressed in any patient). Many women with PCOS are of normal insulin and normal weight.

“…Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a syndrome involving defects in primary cellular control mechanisms that result in the expression of chronic anovulation and hyperandrogenism. This syndrome has been for many years one of the most controversial entities in gynecological endocrinology. Polycystic ovary syndrome has been proven to be a familial condition. Although the role of genetic factors in PCOS is strongly supported, the genes that are involved in the etiology of the syndrome have not been fully investigated until now, as well as the environmental contribution in their expression. The heterogeneity of the syndrome entertains the mystery around this condition which concerns thousands of infertile women worldwide. Some genes have shown altered expression suggesting that the genetic abnormality in PCOS affects signal transduction pathways controlling steroidogenesis, steroid hormones action, gonadotrophin action and regulation, insulin action and secretion, energy homeostasis, chronic inflammation and others. The present review of the contemporary literature constitutes an effort to present all the trends in the current research for the etiology of polycystic ovary syndrome…” Hippokratia. 2009 Oct;13(4):216-23. Genetics of polycystic ovary syndrome. Prapas et al.

GMO foods......are we going to outa real food soon????

2010-01-19T10:23:00.000-08:00

Sugar beet industry converts to 100% GMO, disallows non-GMO option
The US sugar beet industry coordinated an industry-wide conversion to genetically modified sugar beets, thus eliminating a non-GMO alternative for food manufacturers and consumers. Meanwhile, production of GM sugar beet seed is likely to contaminate organic and conventional vegetable seed production in Oregon’s Willamette Valley.
Frank Morton faces a major threat to his livelihood. Morton’s business, Wild Garden Seed, which sells organic vegetable and flower seed in Philomath, Oregon, is threatened by the incursion of genetically modified sugar beets in Oregon’s Willamette Valley.
The Willamette Valley is known as a center of seed production. The valley features fertile soil with ample water from irrigation. Winters are mild and wet and summers are dry, and not too hot. Seeds for specialty crops such as the Brassica family, which includes cabbages, broccoli, cauliflower, mustard seed, and canola are grown here, along with onions, spinach, beets, chicories, endives, chard, and many flowers. “It’s seed dreamland,” Morton says.
Unanimous decision to go GMO
The Willamette Valley is also home to all the sugar beet seed production in the United States.
Two large companies, Beta Seed and West Coast Beet Seed, supply seed to sugar beet farmers in Idaho, Montana, Wyoming, Minnesota, North Dakota, and other states where the beets are grown. Harvested beets are processed by seven processing companies, the biggest being American Crystal Sugar Company, based in Moorhead, Minnesota. These processors supply beet sugar, which accounts for one-half of the US sugar production, to food and candy manufacturers, such as Mars and Hershey’s.
Three years ago, these processors decided to convert the entire US sugar beet production to Roundup Ready genetically modified varieties, developed by Monsanto Company. The industry said farmers needed the GM beets for better weed control.
Unanimity was necessary, Morton says. “If any one of the beet processors or a major candy company had rejected the idea of GM beets, the introduction would not have gone ahead.”
Unlike corn and soybean production where non-GMO alternatives are available, the sugar beet processors did not want that option.
“This was a coordinated effort to genetically modify an entire sector of the processed food industry simultaneously and without holdouts that might otherwise have provided a source of conventional beet sugar to fulfill non-GMO consumer demand,” Morton says.
Stealth introduction in the Valley
Field trials of the GM beets began in the Willamette Valley in 2005—quietly, Morton says. “The initial stages of GM beet seed production were carried out in secrecy for at least two years without other sugar beet seed growers having any knowledge or notification that GMOs were in the air, literally,” he says.
The Oregon Department of Agriculture (ODA) did not ask for public comments nor notify anyone about the trials. “A farming technology revolution went on silently for three years, and was definitely not televised, or bragged about,” Morton says.
Restricted GM canola
The Willamette Valley specialty seed industry has a tradition of ensuring seed purity. Seed producers adhere to requirements for isolation distances between crops to prevent cross pollination. Vegetable seed must be 100% pure.
“We take purity seriously,” Morton says.
When some farmers wanted to introduce GM canola for biofuel production in the valley, the Willamette Valley Specialty Seed Association (WVSSA) worked with the ODA to restrict plantings. The Rapeseed Control Areas rules aim to protect specialty vegetable seed production from cross pollination by GM canola.
At a hearing at the ODA, Morton pointed out a double standard with the restriction of GM canola and the allowance of GM sugar beets. “I remarked at the irony that one of our own (seed association) members had just converted 95% of its 2008 crop to Roundup Ready technology, but no one bothered to mention that as they bashed Roundup Ready contamination by biofuel canola,” he says.
“Contamination is inevitable”
Cross pollination between GM sugar beets and related plants, such as chard and table beets, is a major threat in the valley where sugar beets are the predominant crop. Morton says there are many areas where chard and sugar beet fields are “rubbing up against one another.” The two plants cross pollinate because they are the same species.
Sugar beet seed producers wanted to establish a six-mile isolation distance between GM sugar beets and non-GM crops in the valley, based on research showing such a distance was necessary to keep GMO contamination down to .01%. They wanted the distance to protect themselves from potential lawsuits in case of contamination problems.
Morton says such a distance would be impossible to achieve, given the size of the Willamette Valley. “They would overlap existing farms. If my closest sugar beet neighbor had six miles, it would take out all my fields,” he says.
The WVSSA refused to approve the six-mile isolation, and instead lowered it to three miles, and thus increased the risk of GMO contamination to conventional and organic seed.
Morton is angry. “GMO contamination is inevitable under the current situation.”
A sugar beet company representative even admitted this in a meeting Morton attended.
“Organic seed growers in the Willamette Valley must now test their chard and table beet seed for transgenic contamination, paying an expense on account of a technology that will destroy the value of our crop if we get positive results,” he says. “Nobody considered that Roundup Ready sugar beet in one generation might turn up as Roundup Ready salad greens in the next.”
“Last step”: Lawsuit
Seeing no other recourse, Morton joined a lawsuit organized by the Center for Food Safety to sue the US Department of Agriculture for failing to conduct an environmental impact statement (EIS). “USDA didn’t consider the impact on all these farms and markets to where we sell seeds. My markets have zero tolerance to GMOs,” he says. “If there is any GMO contamination, my customers won’t buy the seed. Who is going to pay for that?”
Morton and the other plaintiffs hope that a judge’s ruling last year requiring USDA to conduct an EIS for Roundup Ready alfalfa will set a precedent for their case.
The suit was necessary to save precious seed resources. “This was a last step to protect an industry and our businesses from introgression of genetic pollution into the Willamette Valley,” Morton says.
Copyright The Organic & Non-GMO Report June 2008.

The Fifth Agreement

2010-01-16T12:53:00.000-08:00

The Five Agreements:

BE IMPECCABLE WITH YOUR WORD
Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love.

DON'T TAKE ANYTHING PERSONALLY
Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won't be the victim of needless suffering.

DON'T MAKE ASSUMPTIONS
Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

ALWAYS DO YOUR BEST
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are tired as opposed to well rested. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.

BE SKEPTICAL, BUT LEARN TO LISTEN
Don't believe yourself or anybody else. Use the power of doubt to question everything you hear: Is it really the truth? Listen to the intent behind the words, and you will understand the real message.

The Fifth Agreement

2010-01-13T08:00:00.000-08:00

Don Miguel wrote "The Four Agreements", a book I really loved and now had his follow up out and I highly recommend it!
This is what he says:

AS don Miguel says, "By practicing the Five Agreements, what you are really doing is respecting everything in creation. You are respecting your dream; you are respecting everybody else's dream. If you use these tools, your effort is really for everyone, because your joy, your happiness, your peace, and your heaven are contagious. When you are happy, the people around you are happy too, and it inspires them to change their own world."

Thinking of you

2009-12-21T14:13:00.000-08:00

Sometimes one reads something that is so apt for the current emotion or energy.....

"have you really not noticed then, that here of all places, in this private, personal solitude that surrounds me, I have turned to you? All of the memories of my youth speak to me as I walk, just as the sea shells crunch under my feet on the beach.
The crash of every wave awakens far-distant reverberations within me. I hear the rumble of bygone days, and in my mind the whole endless series of old passions surge forward like the billows. I remember my spasms, my sorrows, gusts of desire that whistled like the wind in the rigging, and vast vague longings that swirled in the dark like a flock of wild gulls in a storm cloud.
On whom should I lean, if not you? My wary mind turns for refreshment to the thought of you as a dusty traveller might sink onto a soft grassy bank.
-Gustave Flaubert (1821-1880)

You stole my soul!

2009-12-15T12:09:00.000-08:00

As many may know I have closed my office in Monticello and have taken a bit of a sabbatical to work on my personal journey to health and this is what I wrote due to that:

Dear mother,

You gave me a body to journey through this world and supplied little else. Your breast was denied me and with it, colostrum, taurine and nurturing! The good bacteria inoculation at birth would have been free, but you couldn't give that, instead you gave me psychological damage and many valuable lessons to learn...an education well earned!!

I even doubt the thought of feeding my brain with fish oils entered your mind, instead you fed it with doubt, fear and uncertainty.

The joys of childhood escaped as you watched and blamed not yourself but me.

................thank you for being the vessel of my birth as I now turn to my true mother, the one that nurtures, sustains my life, cares and embraces me, mother earth.

Thanksgiving!

2009-11-27T12:44:00.000-08:00

There is a whole history behind celebrating this day and I appreciate that. It is not celebrated anywhere else in the world as far as I know but I do like the concept of taking a day to be thankful.

This is a year for me to be thankful as I have been blessed with so many wonderful things.

I am thankful that this year is almost over, when I think about all the turmoil it brought.
I am thankful that this year did bring so much turmoil and that it challenged me to change, grow and throw out all the old belief systems and the old baggage that was holding me back.
I am thankful for my old baggage because the weight of it brought me here and brought with it an opportunity to choose differently.

I am thankful for all the wonderful people in my life and for the true love I have found.
I give thanks to all my past relationships that have helped mold me into who I am and have helped me discern the qualities I wish for when choosing who I spend time with.

I am thankful for the little things that make my life a pleasure and create memorable days, like sunshine and flowers and flushing toilets and running water and the ocean and birds and laughter and all my senses....really the list goes on and on.

This thanksgiving day I cannot help but reflect on the many ways my life has shifted and changed since the last thanksgiving and I am left in awe of how grateful I am for it all. For all the tears and discomfort and all the conversations and healing. For bumping my head against the same issues and finally realizing the way to embrace and move past it all. For all the people who shared and cared with me and for me, and for all those that passed through my world and made a difference, knowingly or not. I am thankful that this day was created to hopefully help shift consciousness into a state of gratitude en mass, even if just for a day.

I wish to give thanks to this world and all its opportunities that it brings to help me be the perfect, whole and complete being that I have always been.

Remember that life is so much richer when we focus on the things that we are thankful for and everyday is the perfect day to do so. May this thanksgiving shed more light on gratitude and thankfulness than ever before.

Taking time for me..

2009-11-26T12:20:00.000-08:00

This has been an incredible year filled with lots of tears and changes, as well as laughter and travelling.

Why do we always wait for a crisis to make decisions that would have been made a lot easier if we did them in a timely manner?
I love what I do but have been starting to feel burned out and in need of a break. I obviously did not think that I deserved it on some level and did not pay enough attention to it. Finally the Universe (as I call the forces that be) created an opportunity for me to make a choice.
I felt kinda pushed into it and a whole fountain of emotions ensued.

Guilt is such a useless emotion that really does not serve anyone (my opinion). If we act in any manner of our choice, why feel guilty about it?....is it because of the reaction of others?...and are you to be held responsible for that?...
I put those thoughts out there because that was the strongest emotion I felt when I decided to close my office and take time of for me. I felt guilty for abandoning all my clients. For thinking of myself first.

Fortunately for me I do have practitioners that I see for my own care and with their gifts and guidance I have been reminded of the term 'healer heal thyself' and that I deserve to take time for me.

My advice is to take the time you need to care for yourself and to recharge your batteries and be able to come back with more light and energy. This is the best service you can offer anyone else.
It gives everyone around you permission to do the same and to be able to do it without the guilt.

This short sabbatical will allow me to focus on my passion for health and healing of the subtle bodies that make up our whole being. I can read all those books and write to my hearts content and never feel like I have to be somewhere or worry about this one or that one and all their health concerns. I free all of you to take responsibility for your health and to do what you think is right for you, I certainly am and I am proud of it.

Swindlers everywhere..

2009-11-23T12:02:00.000-08:00

Seriously,

I cannot believe that there are people out there devising elaborate schemes to swindle you out of money. I would think that if they spent as much time and effort doing an honest days work that they would be pretty successful, but I guess they get way more satisfaction and excitement causing someone else misery.

The latest is a sweepstakes competition allegedly from Microsoft in the Netherlands to say that you have won thousands of Euros and a laptop......Yipee...that is until you call Microsoft headoffice here and ask if they know anything about this and they laugh and say do not pay any attention to it, it is a hoax!!

The red flag did get a nudge when the email arrived but I thought, what the hell, lets see where this goes. I then get an email from Worldwide International courier stating that due to the large sum of money, an insurance policy is covering it and the cost of shipping it to me is my responsibility and will be about 500 Euro.....The red flag could not stop waving!!!
And it was best to be sent through their accredited Western Union or money gram as they can pick it up the same day and get your prize to you quicker as bank wires take three days!!

Like I said, an elaborate scheme and all over email! How do you as the average Joe trace that and how can it be authenticated?

I still blows my mind that there are people out there that think honesty is NOT the best policy and if you are stupid enough to send someone your money then its your loss and their gain.
I trust that the wheel does turn and that one turn indeed does deserve another!!

Good luck to all you swindlers, may your day come!!

H1N1...what??

2009-10-26T10:56:00.000-07:00

Seriously,

Every year at this time when the seasons change everyone gets a cold. There is sneezing, wheezing, coughing and little red noses. And every year there is a huge media hype about swine flu and some pending epidemic.
Why are the pharmaceutical Industry and the media such great bed pals? Here are some of my thoughts and questions to ponder on:
Who spends the most money on advertising and still has the largest marketing budget in today's economy? And who stands to loose the most money when opposing these giant spenders?

Is a vaccine created before or after a pending epidemic is advertised? From my observations it seems that a vaccine is created and then the market for it gets created via the media and medical Industry and then the fear tactics start, to ensure that everyone rushes to get the vaccine to avoid the pandemic, and that is a smoke screen for the pharmaceutical Industry to make more money.
I, frankly am so tired of all the idiots that buy into all of this and that cannot think for themselves. When in doubt research, ask questions and get educated/informed. With so many avenues to be informed out there, it just shows your ignorance if you trust your personal wellbeing to money giants that really DO NOT give a hoot about how many fatalities/ill effects there are, as long as they make their money.

Vaccines have been such a controversial issue for so many years and today there are many
medical professionals that have said that the risk for the H1N1 vaccine is too high and they will not get the vaccine themselves or recommend it to any of their family.

It is healthy to get a cold at least a few times a year to shake up the Immune system. I am not saying all colds are harmless.....that really depends on the health of the individual inflicted, or rather, the health of their immune system, amongst other things. But to target small children who's immune systems are not even properly formed yet or old people who already have compromised immune systems is indicative of the greed that is fueling our health system currently. These bedfellows feed on the fear that they create to line their pockets.

When we allow our fears to take over we tend to believe anything no matter how preposterous it would seem to us normally. What a great way to control the masses. It has been a success for many centuries. Religion uses it, world powers use it, even kids on the play ground use it, and why should pharmaceutical giants not use it.
The question is, are you going to allow fear to erode everything....erode your health and the health of all those you love. When is this fear mongering going to reach a point where you say STOP, enough, I AM in control???

More bits and pieces...

2009-10-11T10:00:00.000-07:00

AS you read this try to remember that it is my opinion and you should take it with a grain of salt, use your own filtering system. Take what you want from it and discard the rest.....digest it as you will!

I wanna talk about creation.....our birth right!!!

As I mentioned I am of the mind that we are all creators. I also feel that to create something comes from being inspired.....
Lets break that down. In spired..... In spirit, meaning the spirit is in you/you are in spirit, both are one.

Lets all create from the spirit within us.

Now, this may be the tricky part as many have not yet connected with the spirit within them selves. They may never take the time to slow down long enough to go within. One of the most widely used techniques is through the breath. Focusing on our breath and our breathing takes us out of our minds and brings us back into our bodies. Breathing is supposed to be natural and we all do it everyday anyway. The key is to do it properly...and on to the next bit...

To create, in my mind, starts with finding the unique spirit within you and allowing it to flow.
When you discover your spirit, it is a direct line to the Universe/God/Source/Light, whatever feels right for you.

It is our job to get in touch with our essence and to move beyond all the trained responses and lies we have come to make our own. We are all amazing creators as children and as we grow and listen to others we move further away from the spirit and truth within ourselves. We are taught what to think, how to feel, or rather how not to feel.

I, for one am going back to basics. I am going to find the spirit within myself and listen to its truth and pretend like I did as a child and create my world anew.

Bits and pieces flying through my mind

2009-10-07T10:00:00.000-07:00

I went to a Soul Breathing workshop and the speaker was Robert Winn. During his workshop he reminded me of many things and planted a few new seeds and watered a few others. This piece is just one of those seeds.

He mentioned this: Religion is believing in someone else's spiritual experience.

I loved it and it was probably the best way I have ever heard it described. I always used to think that organised religion was just a fear based system to control the masses and by no means a unique experience.
Spirituality on the other hand is a unique experience (in my opinion), it is as unique as each and every one of us is. What we choose to believe in is not right or wrong, it just is uniquely ours.

I would like to say we must not judge anothers belief system but when it comes to organised religion, I cannot help but have some strong opinions! (or is that just a sugar coated word for judging it??)

Its crazy that the past is filled with religious wars and there are many injustices in the name of religion and somehow that makes it OK in the eyes of many. What the hell are they doing??
Is their religious faith so shaky or is it fear that what they believe in has little base and thus they must protest so much? OR have they taken a story and weaved it to their own liking in such a manner that the original intent got lost?

Whatever it is, the time of organised religion is over. It is time for us all to embrace our power from within and be the creators we are meant to be and take responsibility for ourselves and our own experiences.
Using someone else's spiritual experience negates your uniqueness. In my opinion it does not add to you it takes away from you.

This is not an attack on any ones belief system it is just the bits and pieces flying through my mind.

Judgement...

2009-10-03T11:21:00.000-07:00

...when we judge others, what are we truly seeing?

Are we seeing them or are we projecting/protecting ourselves and lashing energy out at what
we think they think of us??

And then, is it that we are merely projecting unto them how we view ourselves and then judging them for it?

These are things a mind like mine ponders over.....

How do I progress?

2009-08-24T17:25:00.000-07:00

Things progress......

Once we have accepted and chosen to love ourselves, we prove it to ourselves daily by making healthy, loving choices for ourselves.
We look at different ways in which we can heal the beliefs, pains etc in our own world. We start by being brutally honest with ourselves, by looking deep within ourselves. Sometimes doing this may be difficult but we need not do any of this alone. There are many trained and talented people out there that can help us.

Once we step on this journey, many doors open and many people and things enter our lives. The key is to stay open. To do so means to look deeper at things, without any preconceived ideas.
There are many different healing modalities and healthy things we can do for ourselves to assist in our healing. It has become very important for us to heal our emotional wounds and to examine the thoughts and beliefs that limit us or blocks us from moving into the abundant life we deserve.
If we feel we do not deserve good things or that life is hard and we are meant to suffer or struggle in any way, then we have a lot of self healing and searching to do, to discover where those belief systems stem from and how they serve us now.

Energy medicine is becoming more mainstream and there is a lot of research on how, what we think and believe affects our physical being and in turn our health. Energy medicine is a valuable tool in moving us through old patterns and for helping us love ourselves. If this is what you may need, the tool you may need, stay open to it.
Take responsibility for yourself, your health and your life. Realize that you may be in the exact position that you are in because of what your predominant thoughts and beliefs are and have been. You may be sick or alone or unemployed because of you, because of what you did or didn't do to help yourself get there. Once you take full responsibility for your life you have the power to change it and there will be many people and opportunities along the way to help you do so.
It is time for you to embrace all possibilities, to stay open to exactly what tools, healing and or people you might need to heal your life on every level.

Where do we start??

2009-07-08T12:29:00.001-07:00

Love is the place to start.....

" love is something you and I must have. We must have it because our spirit feeds upon it. We must have it because without it we become weak and faint. Without love
our self esteem weakens. Without it our courage fails. Without love we can no longer
look confidently at the world. We turn inward and begin to feed upon our own
personalities, and little by little we destroy it ourselves.
With it we are creative. With it we march tirelessly. With it, and with it alone, we are
to sacrifice for others." - Chief Dan George

Love is an energy of the highest frequency and we, as energy beings, must embrace it within ourselves to enrich and enliven our lives and the lives of others. Our Soul duty in this life is to love ourselves unconditionally and therefore to vibrate at the highest frequency possible.
We are not talking about an egotistical love here but a deep appreciation of self with all its intricacies, loving even the darker side of our psyche. Love for self of this nature raises our vibrations and that of the things and people we attract. It also helps raise the vibration of all we come in contact with. It helps us to see others through love and to live without judgement, for how we treat ourselves is how we treat the world and others around us. It brings the freedom of allowing all to be as it is. It enables a life filled with laughter, abundance and appreciation. A life filled with gratitude and therefore more things to be grateful for.

This intent of remembering, or for some learning to love ourselves, places us on a whole new journey of self discovery. We may realize all the baggage and false belief systems we have acquired and are still holding on to. Through this love and vibration we see that we no longer need to carry these things and we get to choose the very best for ourselves. This love vibrates out from us and brings with it many opportunities and people to assist us in vibrating even higher and opening our hearts even wider to ourselves. We then acknowledge that the people and situations we attract are mirrors for us along our journey and we accept these gifts with gratitude.

Start your day by looking in the mirror and saying to that beautiful reflection that you love him/her and really feel it and mean it and watch it start to enrich your life and the lives of others.

I wish you enough....

2009-06-30T14:47:00.000-07:00

So I got this in an email ages ago and then again a few days ago and every time I've seen it, I've loved it and now I wish to put it here.....and to wish you enough....

"......I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.

I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye"

I will be still and steady...

2009-06-07T10:01:00.000-07:00

If like a cherokee warrior, I can look at the new year as an opportunity to stand on new ground,
then strength and courage are on my side. I will remember that things do work out, bodies do heal, relationships mend - not because I said it, but

because I believe it.

But it is time to make things right, to stay on the path. As water runs fresh and free from the woodland spring, so new life and meaning will bubble up from my own inner source. I will be still and steady, because there is nothing to be gained by showing fear in a chaotic world.

-Joyce Sequichie Hifler

Energy flows where attention goes....

2009-06-02T12:10:00.000-07:00

I have no doubt that many have heard this phrase before and there are times that it causes a light bulb to ignite in my mind.

I was lying in the bath and thinking about the many things that I have been shifting and healing recently. I have been working on some ancesteral wounds and I thought about my relationship with my mother, and I remembered something on relationships I had learned awhile ago. In relationships, what we focus on is what we attract more of.
In my past marraige I practiced this theory and it was true, if I focused on what it is that I loved about my partner it seemed to attract more of that and when I focused on what pissed me off it attracted more of that behaviour. What I focused on changed my energy from either love to annoyance or worse...we attract what we focus on. Attention is just another word for focus.

In the tub I also realised that recently I had been focusing on the wounds that I had carried for the females in my family and not the gifts that these wounds brought. I initially thought that I had to get rid of the energy of these wounds but through the guidance of a wonderful healer and woman, I remembered that energy can not be destroyed only transformed. In my opinion, how we transform energy is by the focus we apply on that energy. The way I healed and continue heal wounds is by changing me perception of them. I came to realise that I must see the gift in them and to do that I looked at what I loved about myself and what I love about my mother and where those qualities came from. The wonderful qualities I loved about myself were a result of the wounds I have carried...therein the gift of the wound.

Focusing on the gifts changes its energy and heals the wound.....

ENERGY FLOWS WHERE ATTENTION GOES

We are all connected

2009-05-09T11:11:00.000-07:00

There are many belief systems out there and I am going to add one more.

I believe that organised religion sometimes fails to let us know that we are all connected and rather insists on teaching us fear and this fear feeds our seperation.
There are two options of feelings that we can choose. One is love and one is fear.

Fear incompasses all the lower vibrational feelings...lack, hatred, shame, greed, envy etc.
Love encompasses all the good feelings...joy, laughter, abundance, happiness etc.

When we realise that we are all connected we realize when we hurt or hate we affect everything and everyone. Mother Earth needs to purge herself of this energy and then it rains or the earth shifts or erupts or floods. As we all lift our vibrations and heal our hurts we lift the vibrations of the planet and help others to find their healing. We can change the world by changing ours a little everyday. All we need to do is start being the change. When we chose a higher purpose for ourselves we move energy in that direction that affects all of us.

If we all globally felt the same deep love at the same time we will create miracles. We have to start believing that we are the creators on this planet and if we do not like what we see then it is our duty to start looking deep inside and ask why! Why have I co-created this and how can I change this within me to assist in the outer reflection.

When we start believing we are beautiful and loving and loved we can start creating more beauty and love. It can be uncomfortable to discover who you really are and what thoughts and beliefs create your world around you but when you move through the discomfort the peace and clarity on the other side is inspirational. I move in and out of discovery more than I would like sometimes but because of it I like who I am and who I am becoming.....Actually I believe I am remembering more of who I truly am through the discomfort of discovery.

I am moving closer to love everyday and because of it I cannot help but wish to share the love and help others discover it for themselves. This is what happens when you realize we are all connected and the bottom line of that thread the core of it, if you will, is love.

I may be running the risk of sounding like a new age weirdo......what the hell.....if thats the hat that spreads the message of love and change, I accept and thanks!! LOOK at yourself and ask frequently, How am I feeling now.....this will let you know what your predominant thoughts are and whether you choose love or fear. Do your thoughts and feelings lift you up or bring you down??? Once you start paying attention you stay present and once you are present you can change the thoughts and feelings and shift your reality to a differnet vibration. Hopefully to a higher vibration.

I said all that to say this....again... we are all connected and we all affect the energy around us with our energy! There is loads of science out there now to back this up!! YOU CAN BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE IN THIS WORLD.......it is not to late!

More words of wisdom..

2009-05-07T11:08:00.000-07:00

A TRUE FRIEND STANDS BY YOUR SIDE IN THE STORM
AND REMINDS YOU THAT THERE ARE
SWEET AND SUNNY DAYS TO COME...................-Kathryn T. Shaw

Time Flies as we heal....

2009-05-05T10:24:00.000-07:00

Wow, its been a whole month since my last post and I am amazed at how much has happened and how many times I have thought about blogging this or that and just never took the time to sit down and do it.
I feel like I have BEEN HECTICALLY BUSY AND AS IF I HAVE PASSED THROUGH A STORM AND MOST DAYS I FEEL LIKE MY LIFE IS A DREAM AND I WONDER WHEN I MAY WAKE UP AND WHAT WILL I SEE??? (oops, bumped caps lock and do not feel like typing that again)

I recently had a few revelations maybe even a healing crisis and it was very interesting. This 40Th year of my life has brought about many changes and they came pretty rapidly. I guess when you finally make up your mind things start moving quickly. I got divorced and when the final decree came I was just numb. This surprised me and I needed to decide why I am not happy.
Am I incapable of being happy, was that the problem....did I deserve to be happy???...was that the problem??
So many questions and then even more confusion. Life is good, business is good and I had to get to the bottom of my feelings before I made any more mistakes and caused any more pain.
I decided to turn to a Healing touch professional that I trade services with and returned to Network Chiropractic. I put the intent out there and many opportunities to discover were opened up to me.

I dealt with abandonment issues and worthiness to start and after some theta healing and self searching I moved through that but as these things come in layers, I was not done.

My new relationship is exactly what I created and I have a chance to be so happy, to live the dream.....I could not understand why it felt so complicated. I am so grateful that we communicate so well as it has helped me delve deeper and deeper. It was during one of our discussions that I realised shame was the next layer and it really blew me away.

I knew I had a LOT of shame around my childhood and being abused and raped and poor, but I did not realize that it was soooo strong in my vibrations that I had attracted it to me from everywhere. I attracted three bad things in a row to happen to me to build on the shame I was carrying and then to add more issues, I felt like I needed to protect myself and put on a ton of weight (in my mind)and this just gave me something else to be ashamed about. As I lay there talking to my partner it hit me.....I was ashamed of this wonderful relationship I had dreamed of and created, the one thing that was supposed to make me happy and help me!!
It was as if these episodes in my life fell into this shame filling cabinet and it all made sense.
I have a new relationship and I am so in love and it may have happened fast for a recently divorced person but I am choosing to be ashamed no more and I will not be ashamed of this love in my life and if no one understands and chooses to judge it so be it.....they obviously have a bunch of issues that they themselves need to deal with.

My healing is probably not complete but this layer certainly is!! I am in love and proud of it. I chose a different life for myself and I am sorry for the pain it may have caused but I know in the end everyone involved will be happier, I certainly am.

Emotions are....and they start from some imprint or belief system and if we are not careful we can feed them and feed them until they destroy all we desire. That is, the lower vibrational emotions mainly!!! The only emotion I wish to feed now is love....LOVE for myself and others.
I know that I am a child of the DIVINE and am integrating it deeply into my psyche, changing the other imprints in there, and I deserve all the good things the Universe has to offer and I accept it now.

YOU ARE TOO A DIVINE CHILD AND DESERVE ALL THE GOOD OUT THERE SO, IT'S TIME......GRAB IT!!!

2012 Unlimited philosophy

2009-04-06T07:48:00.000-07:00

This was sent to me in an email and I thought it awesome info to share......so enjoy!!!
Take your time digest it and then decide how this info feels to you. How has your gut responded to it??
Maybe nothing in it is true for you and maybe it all is......who knows???? Our reality is based on what we believe, so maybe these are just other ideas you can believe in or maybe it is just there to prod you in a different direction.......either way.....take it or leave it!

2012 Unlimited philosophy

1. Humanity and Planet Earth are currently going through a huge change shift in consciousness and reality perception.
2. The Mayan civilization of Central America was and is the most advanced in relation to time-science knowledge. Their main calendar is the most accurate on the planet. It has never erred. They actually have 22 calendars in total, covering the many timing cycles in the Universe and Solar System. Some of these calendars are yet to be revealed.
3. The Mayan fifth world finished in 1987. The sixth world starts in 2012.So we are currently "between worlds". This time is called the "Apocalypse" or revealing. This means the real truth will be revealed. It is also the time for us to work through "our stuff" individually and collectively.
4. The Mayan sixth world is actually blank. This means it is up to us, as co-creators, to start creating the new world and civilization we want now.
5. The Mayans also say that by 2012- we will have gone beyond technology, as we know it. We will have gone beyond time and money. We will have entered the fifth dimension after passing through the fourth dimension Planet Earth and the Solar System will come into galactic synchronization with the rest of the Universe. Our DNA will be "upgraded" (or reprogrammed) from the centre of our galaxy. (Hunab Ku) "Everbody on this planet is mutating. Some are more conscious of it than others. But everyone is doing it"
-6. In 2012 the plane of our Solar System will line up exactly with the plane of our Galaxy, the Milky Way. This cycle has taken 26,000 years to complete. Virgil Armstrong also says that two other galaxies will line up with ours at the same time. A cosmic event!
7. Time is actually speeding up (or collapsing). For thousands of years the Schumann Resonance or pulse (heartbeat) of Earth has been 7.83 cycles per second, The military have used this as a very reliable reference. However, since 1980 this resonance has been slowly rising. It is now over 12 cycles per second! This mean there is the equivalent of less than 16 hours per day instead of the old 24 hours. Another interpretation is, we, or rather Consciousness have been down this same road seven times before over the last 16 billion years. Each of these cycles of Creation runs 20 times faster than the last one. The same amount of Creation is paced 20 times tighter. This is why time seems to be going so fast. It is not "time" but Creation itself that is accelerating.
8. During the Apocalypse or the time "between worlds" many people will be going through many personal changes. The changes will be many and varied. It is all part of what we came here to learn or experience. Examples of change could be- relationships coming to an end, change of residence or location, change of job or work, shift in attitude or thinking etc.
9. Remember, in any given moment we are making small and large decisions. Each decision is based on LOVE or FEAR. Choose love, follow your intuition, not intellect and follow your passion or "burning inner desire." Go with the flow.
10. Thought forms are very important and affect our everyday life. We create our reality with thought forms. If we think negative thoughts of others this is what we attract. If we think positive thoughts, we will attract positive people and events. So be aware of your thoughts and eliminate the unnecessary negative or judgmental ones.
11. Be aware that most of the media is controlled by just a few. Use discernment! Look for the hidden agendas. Why is this information being presented to you? What is "their" real agenda? Is it a case of problem reaction solution? Do "they" create a problem so that "we" react and ask for a fix, then "they" offer their solution? The "solution is what "they" really wanted in the first place.
12. Remember , almost nothing happens by accident. Almost all "events" are planned by some agency or other. Despite this, it is a very exciting time to be alive!

Equinox

2009-03-17T13:57:00.000-07:00

This is the last few days before the equinox which is said to be a time for manifesting new energies in our lives. It is a POWERFUL TIME to do so as all the planets are aligned to help bring your intent to you faster. The deeper you feel the feelings associated with having your desires the quicker you will create action in this world. Energy is powerful right now and I would use it to my advantage.

Why not use all the help you can get to achieve what you desire. Do an outline of it. Get together with like minded people and create. Sit down with your partner and write down what it is you wish to create in your life and how you wish to live. Create a sacred power space that you can enter into daily to read and contemplate all the things you are putting out there.

Even if you do not believe in any of this stuff, there is no harm in dreaming a little everyday and affecting the energies on the planet with good healthy thoughts and feelings and who knows, you may even be very surprised with the outcome.
I believe in the power of positive thinking and visualizing what it is you desire as I have seen it manifest in my world over and over again, so I am going to take this golden opportunity to create happiness, health and abundance. I am going to send good healthy energy out there everyday.

Why don't you join me???

Stressed out....

2009-03-17T13:32:00.000-07:00

Stressed out....who, me??

There are a few things in life that are considered to be the most stressful....a divorce, a death, moving, changing jobs, running your own business, getting married, having a baby to mention but a few.

I am experiencing most of the above and it amazes me how well we handle things and may even feel as if we do not have much stress. My hips and thighs are telling me different. The chemicals that stress has created in my body has caused chaos and I am having a hard time looking in the mirror.
Excess cortisol is not my friend at the moment and I have all these beautiful clothes that I can no longer fit into. I now recall another time of stress in my life and am starting to see a pattern. Whenever I experience stress, the excess cortisol settles on my butt and hips and I feel like a pear!
But I must ask if that is the only reason my body is behaving this way (natural to have more cortisol during stress) or am I sabotaging myself?? In this time of finding my own happiness I am once again faced with the question.....am I deserving of it?? This is not a conscious question until I stop and think or someone points out the obvious!

Either way, I have decided to exercise regularly again and to manage my time better and to ensure that I schedule enough time for me. It is a delicate balance because if I am not busy at work then I start panicking and forget that sometime that also indicates a need to slow down and take care of what is right in front of us. I am not sure where I am going with all of this or even if there is a point. But taking the time for me also means going deep inside and rectifying that old pattern of not being enough and not deserving joy, abundance and happiness.

I have heard and read that this is the month for clearing old stuff and I am getting rid of stuff alright. I am having dreams about things that happened years ago and guess that I am being given a chance to clear it, make peace with it or pay attention to the message of it.

Stressed or not I am going to take the time to look at all the unfinished business and get rid of it.
Afraid or not I am going deep within to heal myself because that is the only way to approach a new life and these wonderful times.

INTERESTING

2009-02-25T15:09:00.001-08:00

Don't you find it interesting that most of the religions on the planet see you as being born dirty? It's an odd posturing, is it not, for a creature of divine creation? Does it even sound reasonable that you would be born into a spiritual system where you didn't have a chance when you arrived because of something that happened eons before you got here? Does this really sound like being "made in the image of God?"

~ Kryon, Book 10, page 234 ~

Mirrors along the way.....

2009-02-20T06:54:00.000-08:00

A book was given to me as a gift. A friend of mine wrote it and all I can say is WOW.

This book is fantastic and I feel so blessed to have such a gifted friend in my world. I have decided to share one of the pages with you here today and will be sharing words of wisdom from this book on the front page of my website regularly.

The book is titled..........The way Home...stories from the master. Written by Mathias Karayan

Mirrors along the way,

"Confusion looks for its answer in a cloudy pool.

The unsolvable problem seeks a solution through the mind that imagined it.

Guilt looks for forgiveness in a world accusation.

Wisdom sees itself.

Confusion must be shown that its pool reflects itself.

The unsolvable problem is gone when the mind that imagined it is changed.

Guilt is forgiven when truth is allowed to be its guide.

You are the cause of what you see and this you can change when you choose to see it differently."

Wise words to reflect upon from the Master!!!!

Choices or resolutions?

2009-02-20T06:45:00.000-08:00

Here are a few thoughts that I have chosen to help me stay on track this year....I have resolved to remember them.

I choose to live by inspiration and assume a neutral position. This helps keep us out of judgement of self and others and allows us to view any given situation clearly and for what it is. It allows us to bring new energy into our world and navigate from the heart.

" We judge of nothing more hastily than people's character: and yet nowhere should we be more cautious." - Georg Lichtenberg-

I love those words and keep reminding myself of them on a regular basis. I, like everyone, have done this on occasion and have more than once felt very foolish in the end. I now choose to allow people to surprise me with who they are and how they respond to life.

I resolve to keep improving to remember to remember!!

Kindness

2009-01-26T11:16:00.000-08:00

"Kindness in words creates confidence,
kindness in thinking creates profoundness,
Kindness in giving creates love.

-Lao-tse-

The energy of words!

2009-01-23T13:43:00.000-08:00

"sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never harm me"

What a load of crock!! Sticks and stones will break your bones and they can heal BUT words may cut you to the core and if you believe the words then years of therapy may be needed to remove the energy created by that.

We must realize that words are energy, sound is vibration and language is expressed as sound.
The words we speak and the tone in which we speak them is sent out to the reciever as vibration and it affects their vibration. I know we choose to beleive what people say and buy into their words or not but words said with the soul purpose to hurt hits right on the mark, no matter the choice.
We can choose to believe those words or not but isn't it funny that the ones closest to us know where that little crack in our armour is and they use just the right words (vibration) to turn that crack into a deep crevice. Why, why, why????

I have recently been bombarded with angry vibrations, that penetrated my armour, by someone who I thought loved and respected me. What a fool I had been. Respect is shown (in my opinion) by the words we choose when conversing, by the energy we send out to accompany those words. It was a valuable lesson to me to choose my words more carefully as I felt the impact of a few mean words fully and reeled for a while. I needed to clear that energy from my field and tried with all my might not to embrace the lies, the lower vibrations.

When we are hurt it bodes us well to take a step back and breathe before we retaliate with energy that will destroy in the long run. Energy that destroys the relationship and the respect.

Words are the way we predominantly communicate and therefore need to be chosen with clear intent. Be sure your intent matches the result you wish for because what you put out there will come back to you multiplied!!!

May your words be tempered with love and may it raise your vibrations and all who you choose to share them with!

Author anonymous - but still rules one can live by....

2009-01-16T20:21:00.000-08:00

Life is short!
Break the rules!
Forgive quickly!
Kiss slowly!
Love truly.
Laugh uncontrollably.
And never regret anything that made you smile.

Aspire

2009-01-13T16:01:00.000-08:00

"WHAT WE EARNESTLY ASPIRE TO BE, THAT IN SOME SENSE WE ARE"

- Anna Jameson

How do we stand in our authentic power

2009-01-11T15:59:00.000-08:00

"So how do we stand in our authentic power?

· We live our truth - with compassion.
· We let go - and grow with Gratitude.
· We rise above the mess - to see the blessings.
· and ... We Faith it till we make it.

Yes, we Faith it till we make it!"

I am not sure where I got this from but love it and wanted to share it with everyone.
The author is unknown to me.

There are times like now that I need to be reminded of this!!

Qoute

2009-01-06T13:07:00.000-08:00

"In every walk with nature one receives far more than he seeks."
-John Muir

Guilty as charged

2008-12-30T12:27:00.000-08:00

When is it OK to move on, to feel happy without the guilt?

Our choices do not always make everyone happy and sometimes they hurt the ones we love the most. When this happens are we allowed to feel happy about our choice without guilt for their pain?

I sit staring at the face of hope and feel its love, yet the pain of another tugs at my heart.

I smile at the future and embrace the love that it brings but cannot shake the guilt that I carry with me.

I face happiness, a surrendering to a new creation, a new life. Am I ready to let me?

Can I cut the ropes of guilt that bind me, the ties of the past that threaten to keep me in it?

At the dawn of my future, will I let the past set behind me?

Guilt, I ask you ...how do you serve me now and in your silence I know you never have and you never WILL!!!

Jumbled mind approaching the 12th of the 12th!!

2008-12-10T13:31:00.000-08:00

I have come to realize that time has just flown by and I have forgotten to write the many thoughts that occupy my jumbled mind, a practice that does seem to help make some sense of it all.
I find myself saying, I don't know a lot and have come to understand that this is because life is hectic and I am trying to juggle work and a hectic holiday schedule and then a 'crazy' mind. When doing all of this, I find it more challenging to go within and find some quiet time. Many things have manifest very quickly and still manage to take my breath away. I know the choices I have made will serve me well but I am still in emotional turmoil and am having a hard time figuring out who these emotions belong to and what to do with them all.
Is the world sad and in turmoil too?? Am I feeling things internally and globally??

This has been quite a year with many changes and some serious emotional challenges and I am looking forward to the end of the craziness. The new President promises change and the energies the planet is facing, promises change and my life is promising change, and part of me is not so sure it likes all this change but what the heck, I did manifest it didn't I?

A jumbled mind not knowing what it wants and what to think is not a good thing amidst all these shifts and changes. I am preparing myself for the 12th of the 12th and have decided to slow down for a few days and contemplate the next few months and what is it I wish to manifest.....one thing for sure....more clarity and control over my 'crazy' mind. I choose to experience a balance so that I can go within and slow all the turmoil down and figure out what is mine and what I must let go. I recommend taking the time in the next few days to look at your reality and figure out what it is you truly desire and use this powerful gateway of the 12th of the 12th, combined with the full moon energy and CREATE, CREATE!!!!!

A word of warning......this is a powerful time in our lives and we need to become clear about our intent and how we wish to move forward. You are a limitless being that can create many wonderful things and above all you have free choice, so choose wisely!!

Happy creating and HAPPY HOLIDAYS from one jumbled mind to another!!!

A long stemmed red rose!

2008-11-16T13:13:00.000-08:00

There is something so breathtaking and eyecatching about it.

The long slender stem with the occassional thorn to protect itself....like a beautiful tall beauty with a little edge.

The tip of it adorned with a unique deep red fragrant flower. A flower that becomes more radiant as it grows and ages....and if it's aesthetic appeal is not enough, it touches the heart, our emotional yardstick and the touch floods our body, ending in a radiant smile.

The rose has passed it's radiance unto the reciever.

There IS something magical about a long stemmed red rose!!!

Letter to the past..........

2008-11-14T13:05:00.000-08:00

Thank you for bringing me to this moment.

Thank you for your support and guidance along the way. I learned so many things and experienced something new. You helped open my heart, you brought sadness and offered a safe place to express it and joy in abundance.

This journey helped shape me and gave me the greatest gift of all, MYSELF!!!

I accept this gift and will do it justice by honoring it first, by doing what nurtures it and I will listen to it's gentle guidance.

I step bravely into this moment and choose the path that resonates with all that I have come to know of myself.
My choices are about empowering me, trusting myself and honoring the women I have become.

The past may have shaped me but it is what I do and feel in this moment that defines and allows me to continue to grow.

Thank you for bringing me to this moment!!!!

What is - in love??

2008-11-08T10:16:00.000-08:00

I think it is when you are immersed in love, surrounded by it....flowing everywhere in and out of you.

You love from the INside out and thus according to the law of the Universe/ the law of attraction, you attract what you are....LOVE.

Fall IN love with yourself.

What is love....

2008-11-07T10:07:00.000-08:00

That ever elusive question, what is love may just be answered.

It's when you see yourself clearly reflected in another and you know you deserve it and you open/keep your heart open and allow it in.

This however can only happen when you choose to love yourself unconditionally first; when your reflection in the mirror makes you smile from the inside.

Presidential thoughts

2008-11-05T15:39:00.000-08:00

WOW, what a ride this campaign has been.

I am so glad that the slandering advertising between Coleman and Franken is finally over. Why would they think that we the public find that informative or even appealing. I do not know these men but after enduring their ads, I do not care to either. I think that there should be no place for people who have to put another down to win, in a governing sector.
How can you trust anyone to govern when they cannot govern them selves and slinging mud does not seem like the right way to govern yourself....just my opinion!!

I'm not sure if our new president is all that he seems to be but my heart really hopes so. During campaign trails they tend to do a good marketing pitch and Obama certainly did. I have not lived here all my life and can be fooled by the right words at the right time and I do embrace change. I do think it cannot be worse that it has been up till now.
It is a fact that a leader is only a good as the people that assist him. I trust he has some good assistance. It is however time for the greater public to speak up because the power is in the people and we are the ones that appoint the government (or so we are led to believe...a whole nother story there!)
When we all band together and stand up for what we believe in then the government will listen.
(or has this country really got me snowed?)

I am happy that Obama won and look forward to seeing him put his money where his mouth is.
I think that we need to send positive energy to this change as it may be a rocky road. Remember that energy flows where attention goes and we must put our attention on healing and change and moving forward.

Good luck to Obama and good thoughts from all of us!!!

Self healing....

2008-11-05T13:21:00.000-08:00

It has become very important during this time to focus on the healing of self. Clearing old wounds, removing blockages and loving oneself unconditionally.
It still seems to be difficult for most to look in the mirror and say I love you to the self....from a place of truth deep inside.

With the energies on the planet changing and raising so rapidly, it is critical to let go of old imprints and belief systems that keep you stuck.
11:11 is said to be the perfect time to release old patterns and work at the self. This is a powerful time to turn the tide. this time of turmoil and constant change is here to propel us forward and help us seek out our bliss and direction. The days between the 11th and 13th are said to be the closing of lower vibrational gateways that feed on our fears. The time of darkness is coming to a close. ( and by darkness I mean the time of hiding and cover ups) ...also refered to as the time of ignorance.

It is important to go within during this time of great change and find the wisdom and strength and gifts waiting there. Focus on the things that nurture and bring you balance. The things and thoughts that feed your soul, that inspire and drive you. When the old belief systems that no longer serve you surfaces, this is a golden time and opportunity to let it go...you will have a lot of support during this time to move forward.

This is a time to open your heart and allow change and goodness to flow through you. Have the courage to love with an open heart and to face yourself honestly and embrace your power.
During this time you will find yourself dropping all that no longer seems appropriate, do not fear it but allow for the release of it.

Step into the perfection of you. It is time to remember that you are perfect, whole and complete.

Message from Kryon

2008-10-21T13:18:00.000-07:00

I love this message and it is good to remember as we enter the new moon in scorpio, which is all about the unveiling of the truth...the naked truth about ourselves and everything in our lives.

"Blessed are the Humans who have made it their goal for self-improvement. . . to know more about the vibrational level of where they are in the cosmos. Do not leave here with questions about how to do these things. Just do them. Sit in front of Spirit and ask the question, "God, tell me what it is I need to know." And then expect the answers and move forward with a cosmic intelligence that is there. Call it what you wish. You just have to be able to start, and the rest will be added by God as you climb the steps of your sacred journey."

Love and loss

2008-10-15T15:10:00.000-07:00

The last few weeks have been filled with love and now I must face loss. I have finally connected on a deep level with a great love in my life and the pain that he was carrying took my breath away. I was the cause of this pain, my decision to leave has left a deep wound and I pray that the universe helps with the healing. I wish to leave him without a scar.

Feeling his pain helped push me into action. It is never fair for us to think that we can spare anyone pain with treading lightly. We stay stuck and cause everyone to be stuck if we cannot act or take action. Remember confrontation is never easy but it does clear the air and allow for new energy to come in. It allows all parties to know where they stand and then gives them a choice where they may not have seen one before. Facing things head on lifts the veil.

I am reminded that with closure comes mourning and I am experiencing a lot of that. It seems to come at me in waves and there are times that I could sit in a heap and cry and cry.
Are my tears cleansing or a sign that I may be resisting the change??
I do not know the answer to that but will not resist the urge to be vulnerable and submerge myself in the pain for a little while. I must feel this to be able to move through it and who knows what awaits on the other side.

For those who know the love and loss that I am talking about, we are one.
Please do not close your heart! Have the courage to keep loving with an open heart and know that with great sadness comes great joy. You cannot have one without the other.
I, like you, now await the joy and am choosing to do so with an open heart.

Thank you for sharing your precious time with ME!!

Keeping this up....

2008-10-08T12:34:00.000-07:00

Phew.....Having quite a time keeping up on updating this and still trying to stay sane.

It is hard to write anything inspirational when one feels like your life is going down the crapper but I am happy to report that even that was a fleeting thought...ok maybe not fleeting but it did pass as all things do when one does not continuelly dwell on it and therefore keep sending it energy. The ego perpetuates this behaviour, I am told. I am ready to kick the S*#@t out of mine by now!!

Life is filled with twists and turns and I am dizzy from all the curves. I wish they were in all the right places on my body instead of everywhere I look in my life.
Choices are overated some might say and I get it as I have certainly had my fair share. I am trying not to sound like a spoilt brat and have no doubt that some are even muttering it under their breath as they read this, but not all choices are what they appear to be at first glance and even then one may need to take a long hard second look and choose between the lesser of two evils.

My choices have been hard and painful for more than just me. There are times when we all wish we could take the pain away for those we love but I am reminded that we all need to follow our own path and how we feel is still a matter of choice (yip, there is that word again)
For those that are hurting right now.....I feel your pain and I second that!

So here are words of inspiration.....this too shall pass (and you thought it would be better than that I bet)

I go to sleep knowing that all I have to do is honor myself and do what is right for me and if it is not in the long run then I have certainly gained a lesson and will still have the right to choose something different. Choices are a wonderful thing (ughh, I did just say that) but it is true even if I do not always see it from that perspective.
So if you are faced with choices today....choose wisely but do not beat yourself up because another one will be on it's way real soon!!!!

life in the fast lane...

2008-09-19T14:30:00.000-07:00

Today was quiet and many thoughts ran through my mind from the time that I was in the shower until now.

I wondered how I had gotten to make the choices I have made, as the water rushed over me. When exactly did I leave my current relationship. Thoughts of control and how he asserted it came to mind. It was then that I left, not physically but mentally and somewhat emotionally too. I did not feel secure and protected and wondered why the hell I was staying in such a tight spot.

I fought it for three years until I decided to open my heart to me.

Money is often used to control us and keep us locked in. It is not the money that is evil and corrupt but the ones that hold it firmly in their hands. Many relationships fall apart because of finances and loss of trust and love and the list goes on.

What was the downfall of this particular one you may wonder.....it was all of the above!

Relationship are there to teach us about ourselves and to help us grow. This was no exception. In this relationship I learned about love and wonderful childhoods and how the other side lives. I learned about a whole new culture and I laughed a lot. It was safe to grow and open myself up. I learned to look at myself through his eyes and finally liked what I saw and started cultivating that. Relationships are not perfect but can be perfect for you and can also be perfect for a specific purpose and reason. One needs to know when relationships have served their purpose and needs to change or move on. This is where we all get stuck and paralyzed at times. Do not allow fear of change and some discomfort keep you locked into a situation that does not serve either of you.

I moved into a beautiful little cottage on a lake with no running water and an outhouse. A trip to say the least but in those moments where I feel down and sorry for myself, I look out the window and see the most gorgeous view and nature in all her splendour and I feel lighter and blessed. I wake up to the sound of loons on the lake and all those little things seems to slip away until I summon them back. I moved out of a situation I could no longer navigate, to find my center again.
It has been an interesting journey and I am still a little of center but a lot closer than before and I have found love within myself to sustain me which also helps me look at the world with softer eyes. Change has been a constant for me and I am learning how to accept it at a moments notice.

May change in this fast lane be kind to you and may you go with the flow...

Chaos and more chaos

2008-09-09T16:24:00.000-07:00

Wow, it has been awhile since my last serious blog, even though many serious things have occured in my world.

Was August chaotic or what??
I have heard that I am not alone in saying that the energies are shifting rapidly and making it a little uncomfortable and then to top it all, shit is hitting from all sides. I guess it is time to deal with underlying issues or watch them show up in all forms time and again.
I am ready to be done with old stuff and am happy to say that September has come and brought with it a lull in events.

Yeah, time to be still and gather energy and organize a little after the August tornado. The new energies in October may once again be coming at a mile a minute so all I can do is enjoy this quiet time and prepare for the next rush.

My life has changed in numerous ways and I have no doubt it will continue to do so.
I am facing many new opportunities to discover who I am and what I really want. It is challenging to answer that sometimes....what do I really want??? I am free to decide and can choose from anything....like a kid in a candy store....exept I have toothache and can't eat any of the candy anyway!! Jokes on me!

Seriously, life is great and it does just need us to decide which way to go and what direction to take. I wish I had a GPS for life and could just choose the shortest and easiest route to my highest good and know exactly which direction to start off in.
BOY, I am jumping around all over the place again but this does seem to explain how scattered I can be. I am working on simplifying and getting a better sense of direction. A good idea if I am expecting the Universe to provide and guide!

The next time I write I may even know where I am going and with any luck I may have a good idea on how to get there.

Right now I am recovering from the chaos and resting a little to build up a whole bunch of energy for the next wave of life......

Free as a bird

2008-08-25T18:29:00.000-07:00

One day along my travels it came to me, there was a land I wanted to see.
I flew in and landed on a counter....he sighed and said, you are the most exotic and strangest bird I've ever encountered. I replied with eyes of knowing and a depth he could not see.

A freedom he tried to posess.
Please do not cut my wings I pleaded but awoke one day with feathers on the floor.
I cried and knew I could not stay no more.

Waiting for the strength to return to the wings with which I was born, I took flight and welcomed freedom again.

The wind and sky, my paradise. A lesson learned and taught. Wings are meant to spread and soar.

Never try to change the nature of an exotic bird!!!

Message are everywhere!!

2008-08-06T15:30:00.000-07:00

There are times in my life where I feel so aware and when message seem to jump at me from everywhere, or is it just that I have finally chosen to receive messages in a way that even I cannot miss.

It is true that once you make a choice or decision in a certain direction there are many messages to guide you. It is important to stay open and vulnerable. Do not delve into deep emotions and keep your eye on the goal. Messages come from the strangest of places sometimes but it does not make them any less important.

I have been told to stay strong and take one day at a time. It is really all I can handle right now anyway....one day at a time!

Pay attention to that sign you may never have seen before or the headline that popped out at you or an arbitrary comment made by a stranger that caught your attention.
Listen and then listen some more.

Prayers are always answered and messages are everywhere!

depression or mourning

2008-08-04T18:00:00.000-07:00

I awoke this morning with a heavy heart and was not sure if I was depressed or mourning for a relationship that has changed. For a life of twist and turns that seems to threaten to overwhelm me at times?

Is it just the gloom of an overcast day that has stolen the sunshine from my heart and demeanor? Or is it part of a healing phase?
There are many positives in my current situation but in the depths of this mood, I am finding it hard to see.

I am writing this an an attempt to pick myself up and dust away the heavy fragments of this moment. Change as I may have mentioned before is not always comfortable and I am certainly witnessing it first hand today.

I have no miracle cure for this but am going to console myself in the fact that the sun will shine tomorrow and I will feel more balanced and centered soon. The only thing to do is be still or stay as busy as I can and hope I outrun this too. I choose to run when I need to or until I get tired....it is one of the first things I generally do. When I am done being reactive I may be still to notice the message of this part of my journey.

May your day be filled with sunshine even if mine isn't!!!

Life on the lake

2008-08-04T10:18:00.000-07:00

The sunsets are always more spectacular when you add water.
The glow in the sky a color you cannot describe but it warms your heart and you feel honored to be it's witness!
Nature has her way of humbling the toughest heart and filling it with wonder and appreciation.

I am her slave for I have seen her display of magic and her dance of color.

I like the reflections of it all in my life along the lake.

May we all have a colorful and reflective journey!!

Appreciation

2008-07-28T21:36:00.000-07:00

No matter whether you are a Buddhist or not, a spiritual practitioner or not, appreciation is very important. Appreciation is a great thing; you really need to have it. This is what I think from the heart. Appreciate, appreciate, appreciate. There is no real reason why you should not be happy, unless maybe there's too much complaining and not enough appreciation. ~
His Holiness the Twelfth Gyalwang Drukpa

Need I say more?

Lifetimes in a life time

2008-07-26T19:51:00.000-07:00

Isn't it interesting that as we go through our lives, we live many different lifetimes. An interesting thing happens when you come from a balanced state.

Every emotional phase I heal helps me grow. I have noticed that the closer I get to me the easier it becomes to manifest whatever I wish for in my life. This year as I approached another birthday and even now as I remember celebrating it, I must admit, fascination for the journey that brought me to this moment overwhelms me.

I remember my twenties but now it does feel like a lifetime away. I remember the me I was then and even she seems like a different person...I still have some of her qualities but I am so much more now. I have changed and grown and evolved and my life has been a series of gifts and lessons. It has offered me many opportunities to change and thankfully I have.

I feel the fear until I have built up enough courage or maybe it is that I am more afraid of what would be the outcome if I allowed fear to keep me captivated and locked in time.

As I review the decades of my life, I realize that I have lived many wonderful and some not so wonderful lifetimes already. Now as I am again embarking on another lifetime, I am grateful that I have once again defeated fear and accepted the magical unknown. I am on the brink of something wonderful and I am ready. My journey has brought me to love who I am and what I have to offer and appreciate all the wonderful moments and people that have helped me on my path.

It has taken many years to see and admit that even the not so wonderful years had their own special purpose. Their gifts now in fruition.

What a glorious time to be alive and how scary it can sometimes seem. There is this war against our darker and lighter sides and the earth is echoeing it. We must return to love and it all ends and starts in us.

This lifetime is about balance, living from the heart and honoring my boundaries and myself.

Which lifetime are you in and what choice do you choose to make to honor your growth?

Where to?

2008-07-16T06:20:00.000-07:00

Life with it's many twist and turn can be challenging and one does tend to wonder where we will end up?
Forrest Gump said "life is a box of chocolates" .....sweet, I can handle chocolates, maybe the hips can't but I certainly am willing to bite into that! The last few weeks have been a whirlwind of bittersweet chocs and my taste buds are yearning for something more subtle.

Opening my heart has been a wonderful experience of how much change one can handle. If you are going to break the dam wall be ready for the flood, and a flood it has been. A flood of emotions long waiting to be set free and a host of wonderful opportunities to flow with life.

Perception is a strange thing and sometimes we need to shift it in order to get a clear picture of where we are and what to do next and I am happy to say that sometimes we need do NOTHING.......NO thing? These are but a few of the lessons I have encountered since opening my heart to me.

I know this post seems garbled yet again but I make no excuses for the mind just spitting out what it wants and this is my space to just try and make sense of it all. It also gives you a clear picture that sometimes I do not know either! I am figuring it out one day and one step at a time.

Where to now?? I am doing my best to stay open and receptive to all the good in the Universe and trusting that when it does seem bittersweet that I just need to shift my perception!!
The most important thing is for me to keep my heart open and top it up with the love that seems to come from everywhere and everyone.

Follow me

2008-07-08T20:43:00.000-07:00

"do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail"

Ralph Waldo Emerson

These words are inspirational but still I hesitate to move forward. I am trying not to be paralyzed by the uncertainty and the unknown. My excuse is that I do not wish to cause any pain to those I love but really is that a cop out? Am I not hurting myself by staying stagnant and am I not the one that I love too?

Follow me into the depth of the void and watch as we emerge forever changed, following our hearts and dreams.

Independence..............really???

2008-07-05T06:50:00.000-07:00

Independence day celebrations everywhere. It got me to thinking (still free) about the original intent behind it all....
Independence is the self-government of a nation, country, or state by its residents and population, or some portion thereof, generally exercising sovereignty. and is often an emancipation from some dominating power.

The self government by it's population.....what a joke!!
In this day and age our independence is slowly being eradicated and many are to oblivious to notice that little by little they are loosing their freedom of choice.
Everyday there are more laws being passed that affect that freedom of choice and it happens so quickly that unless you are paying careful attention, it is done before you can protect yourself.

AND these laws are being passed under the guise of protecting the public at large but really it is about money and greed....all you need to do is really take a closer look!

Pay attention people the country that you thought was democratic and free is laughing at you!

How can compulsory vaccines (proven to be the leading cause of Autism and impaired Immunity) help the greater public??? Should it not be my choice as to how I care for my health and should I not be allowed to decide who I consult for my personal well being?
Watch out for licensure as this is another illusion under the guise of public safety.
What a load of crap....the egos in the room are suffocating!!
The FDA....another joke on us. This organization is supposed to be there to protect the public but look at how many drugs are out there known to have devastating side effects but until someone dies....sorry...till many die...the FDA will line their pockets and those that they truly protect, first.

Independence....we gained it from the world at large, emancipated from one dominating power to another who seems more corrupt and filled with deceit. But at least for this weekend we can be save under the illusion of it all.

How's that for a little venting!!!

Life..

2008-07-03T06:35:00.000-07:00

My yogi tea message for the day...

"the beauty of life is to experience yourself"

I am learning to do so on many levels and it is always interesting when we stop and pay attention to our reactions and actions and then take the time to see what the belief system behind it is.
I have found that it is the easiest place to start when choosing to make changes. (my belief systems and where they stem from) I ask myself if this belief still serves me and if it is truly mine or just something I bought into...do I wish to continue it or have my views shifted?

Easiest does not always mean comfortable because some changes are not always comfortable. I am navigating the discomfort and staying mostly on course. There are days where I cannot even find the compass!!!

BUT....for today I choose to just experience myself and see the beauty in me!!

Words of wisdom

2008-06-26T16:20:00.000-07:00

The important point of spiritual practice is not to try to escape your
life, but to face it -- exactly and completely.
~ Dainin Katagiri Roshi

Even if it is difficult to do it is important to face our obstacles as to not allow them to turn into mountains that then seem insurmountable.

Right now I am facing my own obstacles and realize that sometimes we need to do the thing we think we cannot do and in doing so we grow a little more every day. If you can remember back to your teenage years you will remeber suffering from growing pains. I do and this growth may come with it's own growing pains but it then reminds me of something I read.... External obstacles are internal resistance to change. Which then means that if it hurts to much what is the internal resistance??
I am being my own devils advocate and now I must leave because the only way I can find out if there is resistance internal or otherwise is to go and find my peace and my center and go within.

Till Later....

Summer solstice 2008

2008-06-21T06:14:00.000-07:00

Once again we find ourselves at this powerful gateway. Another opportunity to create the reality we wish to experience and a wonderful statement from a movie...PS I love you, pops into my memory. "My business is to create, it doesn't even matter what you do...create something new and there it is and it's you out in the world, outside of you and you can look at it or hear it or read it or feel it and you know a little more about you....a little bit more than anybody else does."

I love it , it sums up creation for yourself. I stand at this doorway again this year with the sun streaming through the window filled with excitement. I have been fortunate that the Universe provided me with some time to ponder upon my life and where I would like it to go. I am ready to take the next step and at the eve of this solstice I will know exactly what I am putting out there to manifest in my life.

I urge you to take the time now to think about where you wish to go and who you wish to remain through it all. Look at the qualities you admire within and without you and cultivate that now.
Meditate or slow down long enough to get in touch with yourself, to hear that still inner voice and pay attention to it's guidance. The Universe knows only love and it is up to you to allow it to flow through you at all times. Open your heart at this gateway and experience the abundance that is rightfully yours. Seize this moment to find your bliss, dare to dream big, kick fear out the door and watch as it all unfolds for you.

Have a wonderful solstice and remember the cliche...Be all that you can be!!!!

Comments are appreciated...

2008-06-18T05:34:00.001-07:00

Hi there,

This is a message to ER......
I am not sure how to reply to your comments made but want you to know that I really appreciate them and thank you for the info on Mandela and the Inauguration speech. It did come as a bit of a surprise but reminded me that I did not hear those words from him at the time and was confused when I saw it later....so thanks for refreshing my memory.

I love comments on my blog and invite eeveryone to add if they so choose.
ER...your comments did inspire me to keep writting and for that I am very grateful. It came at a time when I needed to hear it. THANKS!!

Leading me to this....pay attention to all that impacts your life as it is gently guiding you to where you wish to go. The universe does not wish for us to struggle and experience pain but if it's gentle nudges do not get our attention then it will push harder and harder until it does and we respond.

Make this a great week of manifesting....Summer solstice is a good time to manifest your desires for the summer and the rest of your year!!!

Gratitude to me and thee

2008-06-18T05:34:00.000-07:00

I recieved this update about gratitude and am grateful for the reminder. Graditude is the fuel for bringing more abundance into our lives. It puts us in a space of higher vibration and the feeling of gratitude brings more to be grateful for. Practice theses daily. I know I will!!

9 Agreements for Co-Creating through the Higher Laws of Love and Gratitude:

1. I agree that a world of Love and Gratitude begins with me. I choose to be a conscious mirror and model of the change I wish to see in the world.

2. I agree to consciously set an intention for manifesting something miraculous in my life -- everyday and in every way.

3. I agree to tap into Gratitude on a daily basis and as much as possible in every waking moment. I know that the rewards of doing so flow through and extend beyond me, strengthening the collective field of Gratitude from which we may all derive benefit.

4. I agree to be a consistently uplifting inspiration in all my interactions. I commit to see and mirror back the greatness of each soul who crosses my path. I choose to discover and nurture the light within so that it may shine forth to others and magnify their life.

5. I agree to honor each individual's right to choose their own belief system and life path.

6. I agree to be open to both give and receive within my local and global community. In all my dealings, I seek win-win, mutually edifying interactions and transactions.

7. I agree to be my word in my exchanges with others. I realize that my personal influence is magnified to the degree I am able to keep my word with myself and others. If something comes up and I decide to change what I had agreed upon, then I agree to make that communication as soon as possible to the affected party.

8. I agree to love and enjoy my life as much as possible!

9. And, last but certainly not least, I agree to be Grateful for ME!

Women can't you see....

2008-06-16T12:42:00.000-07:00

Unreal ideals reel in the minds of men
Creating Gods and original sins
And now as in days of old
Trying to deny the truth of the women
And their stories told
Taking away the Earth and the snake
Taking away your truth, making themselves great

Men will say and believe things
Without touching
Tearing things apart
Without feeling the heart

Religions and grand designs
Explanations laced with lies
Male laws, Male Gods
Male Saviors, Male Odds
You will see these men amongst you
Placing themselves above you
With their deeds and words
And insidious things unseen and unheard
Do they really listen or just make you think they've heard

I understand there must be balance
But we must go way back to the feminine essence
To say it's all the same, is just another game
Played in the laps of Gods and Men, one-in-the-same

This is not male bashing, but there are some that I am tracking
And as both male and female myself I can SEE something else
I am raising the bar so I can see where they are
Hiding
Slipping and Sliding
They are in your midst
When you speak, listen how they answer this

Long live The Goddess
Long live The Priestess
Long live the way it was before all of this
Forget about the lies of recorded History
Rise and tell the truth of Herstory

And be careful of the ones who think that they are better than you
Textured male condescension twisting all that is true
Rise said Maya Angelou
Rise because she was talking to you

The wisdom of the Earth
The truth of our birth
Help us to see the beauty
Of this feminine Universe

And mostly thank you for choosing me to lead you back to thee......humbly...HZ

This was a poem written by Hanakia Zedek.....He was a very powerful force in my life and has reminded me of many things that have helped me on my journey back to me. I thank him and I honor his journey.

To me this poem says that women need to rise up and step into their power and be all they can be!!!
Let your power no longer be diminished by the roles you feel you must play. Vulnerability is your greatest strength. Your intuition your guiding light.

Memories..

2008-06-11T17:35:00.000-07:00

I remember the moment.
The tightness in my chest released and flooding my body.

The wave of it leaving me feeling everything
Exquisitely, acute.
The sound, the look, the touch, the words, my voice.

I remember the moment
my body alive, awake again.

I remember the moment
and the memory sustains me!

-HS

Sometimes these memories are all it takes.....(remembering the sensation, the feeling of love and happiness, of being acutely aware of everything around you and within you)....to create what you wish for in life.

Attraction ... all you have to do is remember the feeling and allow it to stay with you while you visualize what it is you wish for.
Start creating the world you wish to experience one thought and feeling at a time.

MSG a slow poison

2008-06-10T05:47:00.000-07:00

An article I was sent...one of many...I decided to copy and forward to all!!!

MSG The food additive MSG (Mono-Sodium Glutamate) is a slow poison. MSG hides behind 25 or more names, such as Natural Flavoring.' MSG is even in your favorite coffee from Tim Horton's and Starbucks coffee shops! I wondered if there could be an actual chemical causing the massive obesity epidemic, and so did a friend of mine, John Erb. He was a research assistant at the University of Waterloo in Ontario , Canada , and spent years working for the government. He made an amazing discovery whilegoing through scientific journals for a book he was writing called The SlowPoisoning of America. In hundreds of studies around the world, scientists were creating obese mice and rats to use in diet or diabetes test studies. No strain of rat or mice is naturally obese, so scientists have to createthem. They make these creatures morbidly obese by injecting them withMSG when they are first born. The MSG triples the amount of insulin the pancreas creates, causing rats(and perhaps humans) to become obese. They even have a name for thefat rodents they create: 'MSG-Treated Rats.' When I heard this, I was shocked. I went into my kitchen and checked the cupboards and the refrigerator. MSG was in everything -- the Campbell 'ssoups, the Hostess Doritos, the Lays flavored potato chips, Top Ramen,Betty Crocker Hamburger Helper, Heinz canned gravy, Swanson frozenprepared meals, and Kraft salad dressings, especially the 'healthy low-fat' ones. The items that didn't have MSG marked on the product label had something called 'Hydrolyzed Vegetable Protein,' which is just another name for Monosodium Glutamate. It was shocking to see just how many of the foods we feed our children everyday are filled with this stuff. MSG is hidden under manydifferent names in order to fool those who read the ingredient list, so thatthey don't catch on. (Other names for MSG are 'Accent, 'Aginomoto,''Natural Meat Tenderizer,' etc.) But it didn't stop there. When our family went out to eat, we started asking at the restaurants what menu items contained MSG. Many employees, even the managers, swore they didn't use MSG. But when we ask for the ingredient list, which they grudgingly provided, sure enough, MSG and Hydrolyzed Vegetable Protein were everywhere. Burger King, McDonald's, Wendy's, Taco Bell, every restaurant -- even the sit-down eateries like TGIF, Chili's, Applebee's, and Denny's -- use MSGin abundance. Kentucky Fried Chicken seemed to be the WORST offender: MSG was in every chicken dish, salad dressing. and gravy. No wonder I lovedto eat that coating on the skin -- their secret spice was MSG! So why is MSG in so many of the foods we eat? Is it a preservative, or a vitamin? Not according to my friend John Erb. In his book The Slow Poisoning of America, he said that MSG is added to food for the addictive effect it has on the human body. Even the propaganda website sponsored by the food manufacturers lobby group supporting MSG explains that the reason they add it to food is to make people eat more. A study of the elderly showed that older people eat more of the foods that it is added to. The Glutamate Association lobbying group says eatingmore is a benefit to the elderly, but what does it do to the rest of us? 'Betcha can't eat [just] one,' takes on a whole new meaning where MSG is concerned! And we wonder why the nation is overweight! MSG manufacturers themselves admit that it addicts people to their products. It makes people choose their product over others, and makespeople eat more of it than they would if MSG wasn't added. Not only is MSG scientifically proven to cause obesity, it is an addictivesubstance. Since its introduction into the American food supply fifty years ago,MSG has been added in larger and larger doses to the pre-packaged meals,soups, snacks, and fast foods we are tempted to eat everyday. The FDA has set no limits on how much of it can be added to food. They claim it's safe to eat in any amount. But how can they claim it's safewhen there are hundreds of scientific studies with titles like these: 'The monosodium glutamate (MSG) obese rat as a model for the study of exercise in obesity.' Gobatto CA, Mello MA, Souza CT, Ribeiro IA. Res Commun Mol Pathol Pharmacol. 2002. 'Adrenalectomy abolishes the food-induced hypothalamic serotonin release in both normal and monosodium glutamate-obese rats.' Guimaraes RB, Telles MM, Coelho VB, Mori C, Nascimento CM, Ribeiro. Brain Res Bull. 2002 Aug. 'Obesity induced by neonatal monosodium glutamate treatment in spontaneously hypertensive rats: An animal model of multiple risk factors.' Iwase M, Yamamoto M, Iino K, Ichikawa K, Shinohara N, Yoshinari Fujishima. Hypertens Res. 1998 Mar. 'Hypothalamic lesion induced by injection of monosodium glutamate in suckling period and subsequent development of obesity.' Tanaka K,Shimada M, Nakao K Kusunoki. Exp Neurol. 1978 Oct. No, the date of that last study was not a typo; it was published in 1978. Both the 'medical research community' and 'food manufacturers' have known about the side effects of MSG for decades. Many more of the studies mentioned in John Erb's book link MSG to diabetes, migraines and headaches, autism, ADHD, and even Alzheimer's. So what can we do to stop the food manufactures from dumping this fattening and addictive MSG into our food supply and causing the obesity epidemic we now see? Several months ago, John Erb took his book and his concerns to one of the highest government health officials in Canada . While he was sitting in the government office, the official told him, 'Sure, I know how bad MSG is. I wouldn't touch the stuff.' But this top-level government official refuses to tell the public what he knows. The big media doesn't want to tell the public either, fearing issues with their advertisers. It seems that the fallout on the fast food industrymay hurt their profit margin. The food producers and restaurants havebeen addicting us to their products for years, and now we are payingthe price for it. Our children should not be cursed with obesity causedby an addictive food additive. But what can I do about it? I'm just one voice! What can I do to stop the poisoning of our children, while our governments are insuring financial protection for the industry that is poisoning us? This message is going out to everyone I know in an attempt to tell you the truth that the corporate-owned politicians and media won't tell you. The best way you can help to save yourself and your children from this drug-induced epidemic is to forward this article to everyone. With any luck, it will circle the globe before politicians can pass the legislationprotecting those who are poisoning us. The food industry learned a lot from the tobacco industry. Imagine if big tobacco had a bill like this in place before someone blew the whistle on nicotine? If you are one of the few who can still believe that MSG is good for us and you don't believe what John Erb has to say, see for yourself. Go to the National Library of Medicine at www.pubmed.com. Type in thewords 'MSG Obese' and read a few of the 115 medical studies that appear. We the public do not want to be rats in one giant experiment, and we do not approve of food that makes us into a nation of obese, lethargic,addicted sheep, feeding the food industry's bottom line while waiting forthe heart transplant, the diabetic-induced amputation, blindness, or otherobesity-induced, life-threatening disorders. With your help we can put an end to this poison. Do your part in sending this message out by word of mouth, e-mail, or by distribution of this printout to your friends all over the world and stop this 'Slow Poisoning of Mankind' by the packaged food industry. Blowing the whistle on MSG is our responsibility, so get the word out.

Qoutes...

2008-06-09T17:18:00.000-07:00

"You must do the thing you think you cannot do"

- Eleanor Roosevelt

This a an inspirational quote for me in this time of change. More words to live by this month!!

Solitude

2008-06-06T21:48:00.000-07:00

I have come to understand the value of solitude.

I have come to look forward to listening to my own inner voice and know that only silence will allow me to hear it clearly.

To find the stillness in a busy life can be challenging and I have come to realize, must be made a priority. It is easy to slip into and old pattern or look into the future and get caught in fear. For me the one thing that works is to remain present, to stay in the moment. Here I am safe, here I know exactly what I am doing.

As this week draws to a close I embrace the weekend for the opportunity it brings me to once again find my solitude, to be still, centered and make clear choices from it. I wait for the perfect time to reveal myself and watch the ripple effect!

Not everyone will agree with the choices I make from this space within. I will stay strong and honor myself for I am the one that I live with all the moments of my life.

In solitude I am least alone. In silence I find my voice.

The time is now...

2008-06-06T04:09:00.000-07:00

Now is the time to look deep inside and to find forgiveness for self. To let go of all those judgements and to move in and on.
Now is the time to take responsibility for where you are in life for your own health and well being.
It is a lot harder for some to accept that they co-created the mess they may be in and that being healthy is not just physical but mental and emotional too.
Start looking at life from the inside out and not the outside in. This is how creation and manifestation works....from the inside out!

Mahatma Gandhi said "be the change you wish to see in the world" Now is the time!
It is impossible to have something on the outside if you do not have it on the inside first. If you seek peace find it within you first and the universal law works in your favor by resonating with it and bringing more to you. More power, energy, thoughts and feelings to full fill your wish.

Perfect health starts in the mind and in your emotional field. You are truly as healthy as you think and feel you are. Stop giving your power away. Start a new life, start feeling, really feeling and when necessary choose something different.
Only when we get in touch with those feelings deep inside do we get the opportunity to change them or change our perception of them. Change is not hard but it can be uncomfortable. It is like changing your cars' tire for the first time...not always a clean, easy job but once it is done, the car handles better and you feel great having accomplished that. (speaking from a womens point of view of course) A win win situation all round. And it started with the willingness to do so.

One step at a time. Take charge of your feelings, they are yours after all and you do have free choice about that. If you feel beaten down and without hope that is the eyes with which you will see everything.
I know from personal experience if I choose to look at life through the love in my heart I see love and beauty all around me.
Now is the time to look through your love and respect for self at the world around you.

I challenge you to love yourself unconditionally. To finally take responsibility...now is the time!

As people come and go

2008-06-04T06:55:00.000-07:00

Sometimes people come into our space with a little gift, a word or an opportunity and when we are aware we get it...we see it. We allow it to move within and through us and we allow them to move on.

It could be as simple as the words I am so in love with you. THE impact that has on your heart hits you like a wave. It is almost asif it was the key that unlocked the door and allowed you to experience the wonder of your heart so full, open and receptive.

With the gift of their words and the energy that accompanied it you felt it intensely and the brief glimpse of that experience opened the door to bring you more and more awareness and more and more opportunities to experience that fully.

Today I am thankful for those people, those moments that impacted my energy and life powerfully enough to shift it, assisting me in raising my vibrations.

I am also thankful for my ability to accept the change.

So to all of you who have impacted my life and my world and helped me raise my vibrations...I thank you...I love you and I am so grateful for the gift of you!

childish 'woffle'

2008-06-04T06:28:00.000-07:00

You may have asked me once...what do you want from me?

I am facinated by you, in awe of the whole experience,
like a child my attention is totally focus on it all.
A new toy that holds such promise and hours of entertainment,
wondering how I will live without it, undevided, unconditional captivation...
and then a butterfly catches my eye.

And just like that my focus shifts and you are left with the memory of being adored.

There is nothing like being in the midst of such childlike splendour, knowing and feeling you are at the center of it all.
Enjoy the moment, stay present and bask in it's gift of purity.
Heaven existed just for you. The sun smiled only on you.
And even though it may have been brief, it was like nothing you have experienced before.

Be at peace, you are and always will be adored, along with the butteflies and pebbles and more!

What can I say.....I like just spitting it out and letting it land where it may...!!!!

Tonight I sleep

2008-06-03T21:25:00.000-07:00

Tonight I sleep so soundly even if the hours are few,
For my heart is so full.

It is amazing to know it's as simple as this,
the present is all it is.

A look at the world through new eyes and in it's beauty is seems so strange to be,
a dream awake inside of me.

Tonight I sleep for I will to be awake for eternity!

-HS

I love looking at me through your eyes

2008-05-30T22:01:00.000-07:00

.....as they gaze so softly upon me,
I see the laughter and wonder.

I love the way they touch my soul and show me the beauty inside.
How wonderful the gift of their reflection.

It seems so real, I will believe that it is pure love I see.

Could it be that I have finally opened my heart to me?

- Heidi S

If I weren't afraid cont....

2008-05-30T20:50:00.000-07:00

So....After my brave statement of "watch out world"...world gave me a reality check and said: honey you're not done yet!

On a car drive to an appointment this morning, my neck felt stiff and I chose to let go of what was creating that whilst listening to some pleasant music on the radio...the tears started to flow and I discovered that my choice of opening my heart was continuing it's integration and merely making a choice (really making a choice from deep inside) was enough!

And when the choice needs a little assistance I am not opposed to using the tools the universe provides like sound therapy and focused energy. Another welcome release insued bringing with it a flood gate of realizations. One at a time.

If I weren't afraid I would focus my business on energy and emotional balancing.

And here we go again another opportunity to put my money where my mouth is and face the fear and act asif.

I love the simplicity of doing internal emotional cleansing - reprogramming and watching the miracles happen. If I were not witnessing them in my own life I would probably be sceptical but my life has made a believer out of me.........IT IS TRUE..........energy flows where attention goes!!

I am so ready to live the life I was born to live.

Are you?

If you weren't afraid what would you do?

2008-05-29T21:33:00.002-07:00

I was lead through an exercise tonight at my monthly Loadstone networking meeting (check out the website for Loadstone to introduce yourself to a strong group of talented, gifted healthcare providers)

Anyway, we were asked "what would you do if you weren't afraid?"

As you can imagine all the obvious surface answers showed up first....I would sing out loud and dance in the rain and jump out of a perfectly good plane!

But when you dig a little deeper the fears that are blocking you from living the life you desire show their face.

I was amazed at the things that showed up for me. I realised that I would really open my heart and love without abandon. I would share that love with all and finally love myself the way I deserve. Oh no another biggy (the deserving factor)

I knew I hit the nail on the head when these words made me choke up. Isn't it funny that expressing the deep truth has a tendency to do that...to make us all emotional and we find it hard to spit the words out. There is nothing like a bit of honesty with self to open a whole new world.

Many realized that they would choose different relationships and do a lot of things differently and I have made a note to myself not to wait - to start doing it all now!!!

Why let fear (an illusion) stop me from being all that I can be.

So here I go...watch out world I'm gonna love you next!!!

Don't play small

2008-05-28T15:25:00.000-07:00

There are many authors we love and their words guide us at times. I love many of them but this one passage always stands out for me and as a South African citizen it has special meaning to me.

I use it as one of my rules to live by:

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, "who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?" Actually who are you not to be?

You are a child of God. Your Playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory that is within us. And as we let our light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

- Marianne Williamson

(Nelson Mandela used this passage in his 1994 Inaugural Speech)

Love after love

2008-05-27T15:11:00.000-07:00

I really liked and identified with this poem, especially now and I wish to share it. It reminds me yet again that love starts on the inside first and it has become abundantly clear to me that I may have closed my heart little by little as I progressed through life. I bought into all the things I was told as a child and one of them was that I was unwanted and I somehow translated that into not lovable or loved and this became my reality and my inner dialogue became a reflection of that lie. This poem is a gift to myself and I give it now to you with an open heart and love as my motivation.....may this touch you deep inside as it does me.

The time will come

when, with elation,

you will greet yourself arriving

at your own door, in your own mirror,

and each will smile at the other's welcome,

and say, sit here. Eat.

You will love again the stranger who was your self.

Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart

to itself, to the stranger who has loved you

all your life, whom you ignored

for another, who knows you by heart.

Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,

the photograph, the desperate notes,

peel your own image from the mirror.

Sit. Feast on your life.

- Derek Wallcott

Believe in nothing..

2008-05-26T11:30:00.000-07:00

Belief is the foundation for all our re-actions. (the way we act and keep acting)
It is where our feelings stem from.
In this new world of attraction, that we are all becoming more and more aware of, it seems strange that we still attract unwanted things.
Could this be that our beliefs are no longer true for us at this moment of creation, thus soliciting the incorrect feeling? And is it not this feeling that brings forth our manifestation? OR could it be that our beliefs solicit old feelings (not good uplifting...feelings) and then we manifest the things that are unwanted, in harmony with our feelings?

When I look at this statement it may mean that I am continually dancing around in a circle or that I must be present so that I can know what I am feeling and thus creating.

A lot of our belief systems were created at a very young age and we stubbornly hold unto them without really checking in. By that I mean checking into how they make us feel. This is the true guage of whether a belief system still serves us or not...

bringing me the point of...believe in nothing or even better yet be open to another belief system or a changing belief system. To create a different reality means that you must change the belief that created it in the first place.
When in doubt... Check in, how does it feel?

I am sorry if this seems garbled but sometimes we just puke on a page! Good luck figuring it out!

positive exercises

2008-05-25T11:51:00.001-07:00

I meet with an amazing group of women every month and we are currently reading A New Earth and one of our ladies mentioned a wonderful exercise that she is doing to help her initial perception of those she encounters in her daily life. She decided her first thought had to be something positive of every person that she sees in Target and has found this to be challenging at times. I salute her in her efforts to improve her positive energies and thus empower herself and send powerful positive energy to those around her.

I would like to go a little deeper and put the challenge out there to all of us to do this with ourselves....every time you look in the mirror, let the first thought and words that leave your mouth be something positive to the reflection you see. If you do this all the time it will be a lot easier to see the positive not only in others but in everything.

Criticism starts at home and the only way to be successful in eradicating it would be to start with self yet again....

This is my constant message to myself and those whose lives I touch...............Please look within before looking without!

Freedom

2008-05-25T11:51:00.000-07:00

"We are all flowers in the Great Spirit's garden. We share a common root, and the root is Mother Earth.

The garden is beautiful because it has different colors in it..and those colors represent different traditions and cultural backgrounds."

(Grandfather David Monongye)

We need to start looking at our world through new eyes. Believe in nothing but remain open to everything. Read the words but listen to your heart.
We live in an everchanging cosmos and therefore must remain open.
Freedom......being open to the opportunities that come our way. Ride the wave and see where it takes you.

Vaccines....causing autism???

2008-05-25T10:14:00.000-07:00

Here is a recent article published inmedical news today......for those who still have doubts that vaccines are one of the leading causes of neurological regression leading certain kids to manifest autism.....................

"A primate model for autism using the U.S. children's immunization schedule was unveiled at the International Meeting For Autism Research (IMFAR) this weekend. The research underscores the critical need for studies into vaccine safety and the immune and mitochondrial dysfunction of autistic children. The National Autism Association (NAA) questions why the government hasn't undertaken these vital studies and why researchers have had to depend on private money to perform this critical science that will surely impact the health of millions of children worldwide.Using infant macaque monkeys, University of Pittsburgh's Dr. Laura Hewitson, Ph.D., described how vaccinated animals, when compared to unvaccinated animals, showed significant neurodevelopmental deficits and "significant associations between specific aberrant social and non-social behaviors, isotope binding, and vaccine exposure."Researchers also reported, "vaccinated animals exhibited progressively severe chronic active inflammation whereas unexposed animals did not" and found "many significant differences in the GI tissue gene expression profiles between vaccinated and unvaccinated animals." Gastrointestinal issues are a common symptom of children with regressive autism.NAA calls for the NIH to conduct large scale, non-epidemiological studies into the biomedical symptoms surrounding young children and all vaccines, including those containing the mercury-based preservative thimerosal and other additives like aluminum.This request for further research echoes that of Dr. Bernadine Healy, Former NIH Director in a CBS interview earlier this week. "I think public health officials have been too quick to dismiss the hypothesis as 'irrational,' without sufficient studies of causation...without studying the population that got sick," Healy said. "I have not seen major studies that focus on 300 kids who got autistic symptoms within a period of a few weeks of the vaccines."Recently the government's vaccine court conceded the case of Hannah Poling, admitting that vaccines triggered her regression into autism by exacerbating mitochondrial dysfunction. "The recent Poling case and this new research provide further evidence that the CDC has fallen down on their job to protect children from harm. The biomedical research to date suggests that parental reports of regression following vaccination is not only plausible, but likely in certain individuals," said Scott Bono, NAA Chairman. "To date, the CDC has conducted no safety testing on the possible harmful effects of simultaneously administering multiple vaccines to infants, and has steadfastly refused to state a preference for mercury-free vaccines to be given to children and pregnant women. It's time for HHS and Congress to step in and take vaccine safety away from the CDC."On June 4th, parents of vaccine-injured children will rally for toxin-free immunizations in Washington, DC. For more information about the "Green Our Vaccines" rally or the new primate study visit http://www.nationalautism.org."

National Autism Associationhttp://www.nationalautism.org

Gratitude.....

2008-05-22T13:45:00.000-07:00

This seems to be the message for me lately....gratitude.
I love it as it does bring in more things to be grateful for via the law of attraction.
I am a great believer in whatever we put out there comes back to us ten fold and why not let it be gratitude.

Unfortunately not to many emphasise the fact that it has to start with you, about you!
There are so many things that I am grateful for about myself, now that I have had time to think about it, and it only makes sense that once we acknowledge that....then we can be given more and our gifts become manifest.

How many people can honestly say that they spend time appreciating themselves, yet they expect others to appreciate them. Everything starts on the inside first and you cannot attract what you are not already vibrating at.
I know this is a hard one to swallow for some but it is true, the good and the bad....if shitty things are happening to you what energy are you vibrating at or what are your predominant thoughts and feelings that may be attracting your current situation.

The point I am trying to get across and cement in my own mind is.....be grateful for who you are and what you have achieved and all the growth and changes you have encountered in your time here. Appreciate your uniqueness (is that even a word???), honor your journey and love yourself fully! Look in the mirror everyday and thank yourself for who you are and while you are there tell yourself how much you love you!!

Am I enough...?

2008-05-15T06:14:00.001-07:00

There are times when I meet the most amazing, gifted people in the healing field and I am in awe of them. Unfortunately this time I am filled with feelings of inadequecy...

those same feelings of not being enough, not being good enough.

We spend so much time on self healing and letting go of the obstacles and old belief systems and those things that do not serve us yet as we look down, it's that same old stumbling block again.

I start thinking why am I in this business when there are so many people that are so much better at it than me, so much more gifted and why will I not give up?

I guess that would be the million dollar question...what keeps driving me, is it this searching of perfection for me, this thorn in my side? Should I then percieve it differently....is it a rose and not a thorn?

Maybe I should just stop thinking and go with the flow... maybe I am still to grow into a beautiful rose bush, thorns and all!!!

Sweet dreams....??

2008-05-15T06:14:00.000-07:00

Why do you creep so silently...deep in the night,
so full of promise, so full of light

creeping deep into my heart.....

And when daylight comes you do not stay,
leaving me empty to face the day?

Naturopathic Bill

2008-05-12T21:05:00.000-07:00

My time has been consumed with letters to Senators the last few days and somehow I did not fell like airing all my feelings but I guess I am ready to now.

There is a bill waiting on the senate floor to be voted on that can change the lives of many practitioners...mine included. It is being voted on tomorow morning at 8:30am.
I wait with fingers crossed and many a prayer sent out to the void beyond hoping for the forces to greet it with open arms and send it back to me in just the right way.

There are 20 naturopathic physicians that are wanting to be regulated or lisenced and they believe that it will improve their lives and practice. all I can say is that it is a shame that egos tend to blind us. The only people this will benefit is the medical profession and some of the schools in Minnesota. There are only accredited schools outside of Minnesota currently and should this pass then Northwestern College of Chiropractic has a good chance of being able to open a Naturopathic program....convenient!!! This explains why their lobbyist are at the state Capitol too.

I entered into this profession to assist poeple in finding their way back to their health , naturally.
I did not know that all my years of study will be looked at as nothing. This is what is happening once this bill passes....I as a classical naturopath will no longer be able to use those credentials or practise any form of Naturopathy unless I go to an accredited school for 4 years of full time studying and I would need to close my office and start back again in four years, not to mention that the schools are all out of state and do not offer anything but full time study...GREAT!!!!!
My hope is that the Senators see that there are many practitioners out there that have a Classical naturopathic education and that all their rights are being stripped. Ironic that I am hoping for acknowledgement of rights when we are fighting a war and no one is paying attention to the rights of all those innocent people. (Another topic for another time)

Anyway,
Glad I got that out there...the wait and tension will be over tomorow morning.

I keep sending good energy to all involved trusting that whatever will be must be....

Trust, now that's a good topic for later.......

waging the battle of being in love as an unarmed entity

2008-05-12T14:00:00.000-07:00

What is this strangeness that crawls over me....

A sensation so intriguing.

No comfort level yet no pain!

I may have been here before but the memory eludes me.

Is this the prize at the end of the fairytale, this feeling of embracing discomfort!?

Healthy???funnies

2008-05-11T13:21:00.000-07:00

To my friends who enjoy a glass of wine . . and those who don't.

As Ben Franklin said: In wine there is wisdom, in beer there is freedom, in water there is bacteria. In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists have demonstrated that if we drink 1 liter of water each day, at the end of the year we would have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli, (E. coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words, we are consuming 1 kilo of poop. (that's over 2 pounds).

However, we do NOT run that risk when drinking wine & beer (or tequila, rum, whiskey or other liquor) because alcohol has to go through a purification process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting.

Remember: Water = Poop, Wine = Health

Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid, than to drink water and be full of shit .

There is no need to thank me for this valuable information: I'm doing it as a public service .

This was an e-mail sent to me and I thought it was amusing and worth sharing.
Enjoy the weekend.

Where to begin

2008-04-25T15:01:00.000-07:00

Well, once again I find myself in unfamiliar territory. It is a lot easier writting in your journal knowing that it will be for your eyes only, now my thoughts and ideas will be out there for the world to see.
I have been in the natural health care industry for some time now and am embarking on this whole cyberage journey, trying to share my thoughts on what is natural and what is not.

I arrived in this country 6 years ago after spending a year on horse back travelling throught the western US @ 3 miles an hour. It was a wonderful experience and I got to see some beautiful country.
There are so many gorgeous places and when you are travelling on the back of a horse you have a lot of time to think and grow. I love Colorado, Utah, Wyoming and Montana to mention but a few. Texas had it's own beauty and the people were so nice and hospitable. It amazed me that there are so many people in the USA that have never traveled out of their area or state.
I guess South Africans love to travel and so the thought of not leaving my home town is very unfamiliar to me. Even now I wish to travel and learn more about other countries and see more of the world.

I think it is natural to want to travel and see different places and I think it is fortunate if you have found exactly where you wish to be and do not desire to go anywhere else. I do feel that those who stay in a familiar place just because of fear are loosing out on a wonderful experience.
I use the cliche....feel the fear and do it anyway!!!
There is no growth in staying stuck and that is definately UNnatural!!

So, that is my take on what is natural and unnatural today.